A few days after seeing my friend I received a msg with a photo of her new ring on her finger. He didn't buy the one she really wanted. Paid less than half that. (hopefully the first signs of things cooling a bit) I was supportive to her about it. I'm still hoping this to fall apart. She can't keep bfs normally for long, regardles of whether they do drugs or not. Most last 6-8 weeks. Tried to call her, no answer. But got a txt hour later saying "out, cant talk" I replied I'd call her the next day.
I called her at lunchtime. She answered. (shortened)
"Hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii NM" she sounded slurry. And really really happy
"you ok, I like the ring" I lied
"immmm soooooo high right now. I haven't slept since yesterday. been up allll night high as fuck" (28+ hours!!)
"ahh ok, where are you?"
"at Fiancees place with drug dealer that doesn't like me "
"is fiancée there?"
"no, he went to work, so me and drug dealer that doesn't like me are here and when he comes back later we'll be even worse than this morning" she laughs. She's buzzing like mad!
"careful, he'll think your a liability" I laughed back (thinking oh fuck!)
"nah, he knows I'm a full on crackhead" she laughs (my heart sinks so low at that phrase! )
"what's your dad think about the engagement?"
"I'm not telling him yet. I need to be sober for that" (I think the only time shes been sober in the last week was probably with me on our shopping trip!!)
"I'm sure he'll be ok" (thinking just don't give her an ultimatum)
"Well he can't change my mind"
"no I know that, that's why I never try with you"
we both laughed. me nervously.
"you working soon?"
"no" (When she next works it will be 2 weeks since she last did. That time has been used exclusively to "party" she must be skint as hell. Her CC is maxed out!)
We end our call with me telling her we'll try and meet next week. Despite being off her face, she agrees. So we'll see how that pans out.
At this point I'm not sure what to do. I composed a fairly 'open to interpretation' msg to her clean friend "hey what you think of friend at the moment?" she took an hour to reply, (shortened) "oh its fine" and the way it read made me think she'd maybe mentioned it to friend. (despite me asking not to) and I was being tested. so I just fired back (shortened) "yeah, I think so, she so happy. just surprised at everything"
I think with the 20:20 of hindsight I wish I'd seen her face to face for that question. I won't talk to this clean friend again about her. If I never hear anything about those messages I'll consider myself to have dodged a bullet there! Felt so stupid afterwards!
I took to the internet. I couldn't help myself (I'm on a planned 3 week gap between my last contract and the next. Just the way my profession operates) I did some looking into fiancée. Turns out he's done exactly what addicts do. He's isolated himself from those that care about him. There's a recent post from a female friend of his saying "we are all here for you, please call us. We love you" This tallies with what my friend said about him. He fell out with some of his family/friends last year (not sure why specifically but I think we can guess) I actually feel a bit sorry for him. Go back a couple years and he's in love with a beautiful girl. Going on holidays to Europe. At events suited and booted. Like he had a decent life. No mention of drugs. But all that's seemingly fallen by the wayside.
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