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  1. Phungushead
    My 6-year DF anniversary is January 21 (So this is a day early, but if I don't post this now I know I'll forget for weeks). It's been over two years since I've done one of these (not a huge fan of blogging, to be honest) and figured this would be a good excuse to blow the dust off...

    This is basically my post from the History of Drugs-Forum thread, edited and greatly expanded on. Mostly because I am too lazy to re-type all the basic points out again.
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    I first came across Drugs-Forum sometime in mid-2004; if I remember correctly, searching for DXM information for my Labrat.

    First of all, I will mention that if you really knew me in real life today, you almost definitely wouldn't have recognized me back in that time period. At the present, I'm fairly extroverted and outgoing, and sometimes too much of a smart-ass, or so I've been told... Back then, I was still hidden deep in my shell, quieter, and definitely less sure of myself. I guess the point I'm trying to make is that at the time I would have been about the last person anyone would expect to join an online forum of any kind, let alone actively participate in it. I mean, shit, at the time I didn't even have a Facebook or anything like that. But the more I read, the more addicted I became. I realized that people here were generally cool, intelligent, and laid back (unlike several other forums I've visited where stupid conversations and flaming run rampant). Against my better judgment (at the time), I finally broke down and joined on January 21, 2005. Turned out to be one of the best things I ever did - online that is

    Back then, the atmosphere here was much different. I was member 2418, and as you can probably imagine, the forums were much less active. The rules were way more relaxed as well. The self-incrimination rule was not enforced until sometime in 2006, and there wasn't near as much of a focus on post quality as there is today (the reputation system didn't come into place until early 2006, so the whole post count to reputation ratio was nonexistent), but you could get away with posting plain crap a lot more as well... Read through some old threads from that time period and you'll see what I mean. The activity of various forums seems to have shifted a bit since back when as well - while toward the beginning of my time here "traditional" psychedelics (LSD, mushrooms, etc), DXM, and marijuana seemed to be the most active, now the focus has turned to opiates, research chemicals, and recovery/addiction.

    Another major difference between then and now is that back then, moving up in member status was much easier/less complicated/way quicker. Take your pick. Moving from Newbie to Standard Member (basically equivalent to the current Silver membership) was automatic at 20 posts, regardless of content - You could literally post 20 posts that all said "fuck", and you'd be Standard. After 60 days of membership and 100 informative posts, you were put in for review for Gold Membership (although it was changed to 150 good posts a few months after I joined - I remember there were quite a few hissy fits over that).

    At the time, I was posting almost entirely in the mushroom and dissociative forums, and it was pretty much solely answers to other SWIM's questions that me and my Labrat had knowledge on. Like touched on above, I was still pretty unsure of myself/less confident, and I can see the difference very clearly when I look at some of my first posts. Anyway, I hit my 60 days and 100 "quality" posts. Then started waiting for my "precious gold membership". It seemed to take a little longer for me than a lot of other members, and I remember starting to feel kind of butt-hurt and a little impatient.

    Pretty soon, I got what I'd been waiting for... (see, backing up PM's does come in handy sometimes )
    I went gold on April 21, 2005 with 135 posts.

    Happy with that, I continued to help with questions in the above-mentioned forums. A little bit later, I received:
    Total surprise, huge confidence boost, huge ego boost. Anyways, during most of this time, OneDiaDem had been moderating the mushroom forums. She chose to take time off, and I took over those forums in July of 2005. Later on, I picked up Dissociatives and several of the forums which were unmoderated at the time. That was an interesting learning experience to say the least.

    I guess I should mention that if you've been around here for awhile, you'll remember that the forum (functionality/software/etc-wise) use to be way less cool than it is now. I think the forum software was Webwiz at the time. Around late 2005-early 2006, Alfa decided to upgrade to the vbulletin software we have now. Unfortunately, migrating all the existing posts to the new software didn't totally go as smooth as planned and all this coding and shit ended up in a ton of the posts. Mods and platinum members spent I don't even know how much time copying code from the new forum so it could be fixed. I actually have a bunch of old Notepad files on my old computer which contain pages and pages of coding from this, LOL. If you look hard enough, you can still find posts with coding in them that got missed. It was long, tedious, boring, and a general pain in the ass. Not to mention that all this was going on while I was still trying to figure out moderator functions, only to go to a new forum software and have to learn them again! But in the end it was well worth it.

    Here is what this place looked like after the migration:

    Old screen shot from April 2006 - Look close and you'll see I was still using AOL at the time, lol:

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    Early 2006:

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    Early 2007:
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    Things were going great. Then, I ended up with some major health problems early in 2007 and suddenly went MIA for awhile. I felt absolutely awful for just peacein' out with no notice, no goodbye, no nothing. I missed this place a lot (to the point of the occasional "withdrawl" dream), and it was often on my mind; but as Alfa put it later when I talked to him about it, the longer you're away and the worse you feel, the harder it is to return. But in October 2008 (a little after I got my first cell with web capabilities and had been spying around as a guest), I finally pushed guilt aside and found the courage to contact someone here to have my account reactivated.

    I spent a lot of time catching up on over a year's worth of events (and as maybe a blessing in disguise, it seems like I missed more than anyone's fair share of drama), and began posting again. The amount of changes I missed was just unreal - just to name a few: the addition of the co-moderator usergroup, the current infraction system, about a billion changes in forum/sub-forum division and layout... Anyway, I eventually had my arm twisted by Alfa into wearing the bold username again (nah, just kidding - I was actually ready to take it on again at that point). This went into effect towards the end of May during a chat meeting.

    So now here we are at the present, after much work, passion, frustration, dedication, and love. During my time here, I have met many cool people and have had some of the most intelligent conversations of my life. I have seen people come and go, and seen people completely lose it. I have read stories of overcoming adversity, and stories of falling down.

    To some, this is probably going to sound incredibly corny and ridiculously stupid, but this place has given me memories that I am sure I will carry with me for the rest of my life. And a lot of it is the people - I think sometimes on forums like this, or anywhere else online, we sometimes tend to forget that behind every screen name and avatar exists a real person, with real feelings and emotions. I'll probably never forget giving Joe shit in the chat, or the genuine kind words I received from several members when I had a family member die. I still have to contain laughter when I think about when Alfa screwed up some kind of setting, and a bunch of us had an huge, hilarious war editing each other's messages in the chat box while he was gone. And I smile when I think of the time that my alter ego came onto the forum tripping on mushrooms, tried to chat, and couldn't figure out whether people being more screwed up than usual, or if it was just the drugs making it seem that way...

    Of course, it hasn't always been good - This place has overcome some major hurdles in the past. But focus on the good, and allow it to overshadow the bad - It will keep you going. I smile inside and sometimes out when I am able to help someone with a problem, whether it is with something related to the forum itself or its topic, and truly enjoy working around here - whether it's spending long hours trying to help Alfa figure out a forum function or a bug, practicing my "mad MS Paint skills" on creating prototypes and guides, or simply laboring for hours (or sometimes even days) over a single post. I often get to thinking how much my own knowledge has grown in these past 6 years, and much of it is thanks to the open minds here which are filled with information and are not afraid to share it. After all, all of us here share some common ground and interest. Thank you for making this place great.

    So, that's my story. If you made it this far without falling asleep, thanks for reading.

    Peace,
    -PH

Comments

  1. Heretic.Ape.
    zzzz... huh? ;)

    Nice read, thanks for sharing it. I remember being glad when you came back and thinking it was odd because I'd never talked to you, just read your posts. Must be a closet phungus groupie :p

    I forgot about the pill and powder logo.

    Hooray for the Phungus among us :thumbsup:
  2. Alfa
    Awesome blog post & nice read.
  3. mersann
    I really liked to read that blog post. Moving upwards seems to have been way easier back then ;)

    But I have to say: Much of the time when I encounter really old threads and don't look at the date, I'm about to rep these people negatively for writing unreadable posts or asking questions without really providing ANY information :D

    Perhaps it's just a distorted impression I get - but I think I wouldn't have stayed if most of the posts really were about the quality I perceive them to be now. So the fact that it's harder to get to Gold, Platinum or staff level now, is probably a sign of improved quality of this forum :)
  4. Crazy Insane Sanity
    Awesome read, Phungushead. I haven't been here nearly as long as you have, but I could totally relate to this entire blog. I literally have no one that I can relate to in real life...sure, I have tons of friends, and get along with people, but I have no one that I really relate to. No one who shares my interests, or understands me. D-F has given me this. This is such a great community! :thumbsup:
  5. g666d
    nice read, excellent post. It is easy to forget the positive influences this place has sometimes, and I am sure many can relate to your experience (i can).
  6. skeletonjelly
    just stumbled across this,

    nice read, Phungushead. :)
  7. Universal Expat
    Awesome read man!!! Thanks, you were always such a help to me. Especially during my mushroom growing days (and panic attack..lol).

    Thanks man!
  8. Synesthesiac
    Thanks for the info mate, was a v good read :thumbsup:
  9. abuseforapie
    great read man, thanks for sharing!
  10. Buddha2012
    Awesome read indeed ! Thx for sharing this haha, I've been here for only a few months but I sure am glad I found it for the same reasons most of yall have , pleased to be here :vibes:
  11. Motorhead
    Great read. 6 years! where does the time go?
  12. bananaskin
    Love ya.
    That's all really ;)
  13. Madhat
    Fantastic blog! I learned a lot!

    I can only hope that those of us who are newer can follow a path as successful and beneficial. :thumbsup:
  14. Sushi
    Great story.[​IMG][​IMG]
    Joined January 2009, made it Gold in summer 2010 with about 400 posts.
    Now I'm "just" 2 years here and found you one one most cool folks around.
    Also because you found my Alien Life Form worth you interest and friendship ;)
    I'm here to stay:vibes:
  15. Sushi
    Great story :thumbsup:
    Joined January 2009, made it Gold in summer 2010 with about 400 posts.
    Now I'm "just" 2 years here and found you one one most cool folks around.
    Also because you found my Alien Life Form worth your interest and friendship ;)
    I'm here to stay:vibes:
  16. kasbeq
    Excellent read
    Great idea for a blog as well . Wish there was more of it.
    Thinking about It, would be interesting to read " Memoirs of Alfa"
  17. jon-q
    Seems like the early days were a real blast... Not to say that the present day fun and frolicks are anything other than fun...fun...fun.

    So part one of the blog is finished, can't wait for part two " Flaming, Shit flinging and Online break downs" ;)

    Great blog and thanks for your input over the years...
  18. sassyspy
    This was phun to read, Phungy. Now it seems your anniversary is about to come round again..any chance some more blooper material will make it into a document from you? (teehee)
    It was cool to hear and see how much DF has grown.:)

    catch ya later, quapo! Sassy
  19. TheBigBadWolf
    Phungushead,
    thank you for writing this. I often mused how the "olden" days on DF must have been like, and I relate to mersann that, when reading really old posts, i sometimes get the urge to rep people for their nonsense posts, lol.
    Hopefully we all will live and learn on here further.

    TBBW
  20. Mick Mouse
    Good story. I also joined back then and you are right, things were a lot different back then. I remember getting over that magical 150 posts mark and waiting for the coveted gold membership, but it never came. Then I had my troubles and dropped out for an extended period of time, and I know exactly what you mean by wondering about coming back! I'm glad I did, and I'm glad you did too, You bring a certain class to an already classy place!
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