I have decided to try sobriety and rehab. I'm going to an intensive outpatient program called rehab after work ( I call it rehab after dark to make it sound more exciting.) I've been sober for 28 days now. By this I mean no alcohol. My pdoc and I have been working on cutting back on my clonazepam and I'm happy to share that I'm now at 1.5 mgs a day, down from 3 mgs a day a month ago. We decided to take baby steps with the benzo since I went cold turkey with the alcohol. I'm still very fragile and quite ashamed of many of my posts here. I will face those when I'm stronger. I'm just asking for prayers and good thoughts to the god, gods, goddesses, or sacred trees of your choice for me as I work to get and keep clean.
I'll try to check in often.