This past couple of weeks have been hard. I've been thinking since 1 of my friends said something to me.
Yes, I am trying to make new friends, i've en tried to go out and make friends, but that hasn't been successful. I'm not into the one night stands , I talk alot, but i'm equally a listener.
Women say, hmm you're fake you can't be real. Whos acting/fake? who'd make up a story as ridiculous as mine. If I was a story teller i'd have $1 billion dollars, 1 woman, kids, the full dream. Granted, alot of women have been huty and have walls, i've always been respectful though.
So guys, opionions on my personality. Its always been wysiwyg (what you see is whhat you get) but acting would take way too much time, and its actors I hate, because then a woman falls for you and its based on lies.
Yes I was brought up with morales. I didn't become a recreational user of codeine, they were for headaches, then I run my own business, then I become ill to where I cant get out of bed sometimes to where id buy stimulants now and then. Whats the story / act in that?
I am honest and open, to anyone who asks me a question. Just do not ask me something inappropriate,
Some people think i'm weird/freak because i'll talok too much, and sometimes if I feel I didnt say something I should have, i'll send another email. This can be looked on as unusual behaviour
Thats the only thing I know, and that I confuse people, that are my problems, along with getting a clean life.
I'm not after every single woman who answers my post, i've always got on better with females, its just i'd like to make real friends that arent flying off the radar, consitent friends. Ive listened to so many people, and they don't even contact me now.
I feel used, so how can this be an act?
end of thoughts.