I figure this is the best place for me to apologize for not following the forum rules. I let my spur of the moment ADHD trump the logic of checking Guidelines before my last stupid post. That's not an excuse. There are rules for a reason and I am glad they are enforced.
The ironic part is that I follow ALL rules set for me in rl. There is food for thought there, me thinks.
Anyhow, I shall be reading the forum rules and memorizing them! I probably should print them out, just in case!
Since I was last here, I did a lot of soul searching to try and figure out what had me spiraling into such a dark place. I finally realized that after a few years of trying to be in management when I knew I wouldn't like it was like trying to hammer a square peg in a round hole. I'm a doer not a watcher. Fortunately, I have performed well enough as a manager that I am being allowed to step down into a non-management role at my company. It won't be easy since stepping down usually looks like failure to many people. But I have to trust my own instincts and start a new chapter in my career. Who knows? This might lead to, oh I don't know, a healthier lifestyle.
Time will tell...