Tonight I sit here, on the second floor of a semi-large one bedroom apartment that I have been sharing with my roommate, and I am all smiles. In the living room where I am seated are three large sliding glass windows which allow a nice view of a 8 lane heavily used road some 100 feet from where I sit. A massive LCD monitor blocks the main window, but that doesn't bother me much, I enjoy the privacy that it provides.
As the cars go by and I look back on my life, and where I was 10 years ago, I can say I am a much better person. I wasn't a bad person 10 years ago, but I had a lot to learn still. The evils of greed, the appreciation of the invisible.. It's like the Cranberries song, "It's in yourrrrrr heaaaadddd, in youuuurrrrr headdddddd".. yea. It surely is. And that feels great. Whats in my head, feels great!
I have lost a lot along the way. A relationship with the mother of my son, my best friend from the age of 12, and 8 years of my life that was a complete mess. Im just glad that life is mellowing out. With tears in my eyes, I am happy sad sorry mad. But tomorrow the sun will come up. It has to.