SWIM has been working at the "titty bar" now since last Thursday making that 10 days now. SWIMs first night went well as there was another Scottish girl starting that night too and SWIM did not have to pay her fee as it was her first night and she had never stripped or danced before. She made £60. The fee is £50 week nights and £75 weekends (fri & sat) we have to pay to the manageress 1 hour before closing time.
As SWIYs all know SWIM is a H addict so it has been a pain in the arse having to use cover up make up to hide track marks. As she also struggles to find veins she has been going outside for a smoke in the car instead. This has been dodgy as hell for SWIM as the city centre is full of CCTV, police going past and revellers going clubbing etc..
The 2nd night was not good. Most of the dancers are Eastern European and the were all looking at SWIM and bitching in foreign accents "high" fiving etc. SWIM had not had any dances so far by about 11:30 and she was getting worried was upset by the bitches so ended up having a massive crying hysterical fit in the toilet and went home. (They all pounce on the men as soon as they walk in the door where as SWIM is not like that. SWIM prefers to let man come in sit with drink talk to him flirt and ask if he would like to "come upstairs for some fun")
Of course SWIM still had to pay her money for working so went in and gave back basically every penny of what she had earned the night before.
Saturday was ok she made her money (£75) and had £20 to herself. SWIM has bought a g of cocaine that day so was very coked up but found this did not enhance her personality infact did the opposite and SWIM kept crashing and having to go and sort herself out in the car.
Sunday morning SWIM was travelling over to buy methadone and was going through the traffic lights when a transit van turning right in front of her did not give way to her and she drove into it at around 35mph. The air bag came out and saved SWIMs face but she banged her knee quite badly.
This was in a main junction in the city so police were on the scene quickly SWIMs car engine was on fire. SWIM had not had a fix yet that morning and was very strung out so was shaking and hysterically crying with shock. SWIMs methadone friend came in a taxi to see SWIM and handed her the 100mls of methadone. SWIM downed it in a 1er
The week before SWIM had been out working at her other job as a home carer and got in about 11:30 pm. The house was in darkness and there was a note from SWIMs bf to say he was leaving to go and stay at his mum's to get clean.
SWIM phoned bf to tell him about accident and he said "PHONE YOU LATER" SWIM couldn't believe her ears thank god methadone guy was there. Unfortunately he is an alcoholic:s SWIM and guy went and scored 2 bags of H each and drank bottle of cider on the bus. Went to SWIMs flat and hit up the bag. So that was 100mls meth, shot 0.2g H, and bottle of cider - o yea and 6 2mg diazepam tablets. Woke up at 4:30 in the afternoon with a slap in the face by ex bf. He said he had came over SWIM had stripped off naked and was lying on bed sleeping making that snoring noise that people make when they are ODing. He then said he had to go. Methadone guy was gone too.
SWIM did not want to be alone in flat so got glammed up and went to work. SWIM does not remember much about night, if she made money or what, but walked home from town. Sat down to have a smoke got home to find keys were missing. SWIM was so exhusted she had to call a taxi to take her back to where she was sitting. (keys were there thank jesus).
Next day SWIM woke up and left knee was twice the size of the other one. Pain all over body which she must not have felt becuase of all the methadone the day before and the shock.
Anyhow SWIM took Monday & Tuesday night off. Went back on Wed only managed to make £30 which she had to give to club so got nothing plus walking home again. Same next night.
Fri was the best night. There is a guy who likes SWIM as a friend and likes his cocaine. He came in and SWIM made £150 that night. (Don't forget £75 goes to the club). Last night SWIM made £100 (£75 to the club).
So we will see what happens tonight. Tonight is fantasy night and SWIM has national dress. Tartan G-string and coller with black straps very kniky. This is what she wore on Friday so she's going to see if it does the job tonight.
One problem SWIM has her period - what is SWIM to do. Won't it be obvious to see a tampon? oh fuck SWIM dosn't want to gross out the customers
SWIM has a brand new hire car now until her car has been valued and is managing to find the occasional vein.
SWIM will post more intimate details soon. Its just that so much has been going on its been hard for SWIM to catch her breath. SWIM is going to stick the job out for just now as even though she's not making much money she likes dressing up and enjoys the dancing. SWIM is very flexible. Also all that Eastern European girls will go home at xmas so there will be much £££££'s to be made then hopefully.
Be back to blether soon, now SWIYs all know why SWIMs been so quiet of late. Thanks for the concern love all SWIYs xxxx
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Confessions of a lap dancer