A schoolgirl who wrote a letter to heroin vowing to quit the drug died from an overdose just three weeks later.
Hannah Meredith listed the evils associated with heroin as she faced up to her addiction before she died aged 17 in October last year.
Her parents have now released her poignant 'Dear Heroin' letter in the hope of inspiring other teenagers to resist drugs and to encourage anti-drug agencies to provide better help to young addicts.
In her letter, Hannah revealed how heroin destroyed her life and that she was ashamed of stealing from her family to finance her habit and of being on police probation.
She wrote: 'Dear Heroin, I never want to touch you ever again. You've ruined my life, made me steal from my family...
'Why do I choose you? I don't know. Yes, I did love you but now it is time to say goodbye.
'I'm so ashamed of myself because of you.'
Hannah, from Llanelli, south Wales, first experimented with drugs on her 14th birthday, when she took an ecstasy tablet. A year later she was using heroin.
Her mother Louise Meredith, 43, cried when Hannah read her the letter.
'She was so proud of it, and I was so proud of her for writing it,' Mrs Meredith said. 'I just hope it can help someone else now.'
But three weeks later Hannah was dead in her bed from an overdose of heroin, temazepam and diazepam.
Her mother, father Peter Meredith, and aunt Lisa Moore have now set up the Hannah Meredith Foundation to help teenagers receive treatment for drug addiction.
Ms Moore said: 'People don't always know where to go to for the help they need. The foundation would help with that guiding families in the right direction, providing them with a tailor-made support package.'
The foundation hopes to have Hannah's letter to heroin included in a booklet which will be made available to schools and youth groups soon.
Ms Moore added: 'I lost count of the times my sister Louise rang me out of her mind with worry not knowing who to turn to or where to go to for support.
'With each phone call there was the same cry for help: "Hannah's missing", "Hannah's high on drugs", "The police brought Hannah home last night", "Where can I go for help?"
'If the Hannah Meredith Foundation had existed the police and school could have given Hannah's parents details about the foundation.
'Maybe, just maybe, if we knock on enough doors and make enough noise about this the community will take action and something might just change for the better.
'Then another family might not have to go through the same thing as we have.'
Hannah's letter - 'Goodbye Heroin'
I never want to touch you ever again. You've ruined my life, made me steal from my family, on probation 'cause of you. Why I choose you I don't know?
You're the worst thing that ever came into my life. Yes, I did love you but now it's time to say goodbye.
I'm so ashamed of myself 'cause of you. I OD'd three times, you're a big risk to anyone that does it and to me.
So I'm going to be strong and stay away from you and never touch you again.
My family have supported me all the way but I just kick them up the backside taking advantage of them. Stole off my mother, granddad, mam I borrowed money off her and didn't give it back. She's getting old now, and look what you've made me do, my nan - £120 stolen off her, once again 'cause of you.
I love my family from the bottom of my heart, it's not nice being called a junkie. It feels horrible, you feel so small. Well I feel small, you made me feel like I'm worth nothing, just a dirty junkie sticking needles in my arms.
You're out of my life now, don't need you no more. Yeah, you've messed up nearly two and a half years of my life but I've still got my whole life ahead of me and I'm going to prove to everyone that I can stay away from you, going to college, getting a job and a car.
Then get on with my life and get my family's trust back. Stop offending, that's the only reason I was doing all that 'cause of your dirty addiction. You make me sick to be honest with you.
I did love the buzz of you but you're not worth it.
But not anymore, I'll make sure you stay away from me, and I'll stay away from you.
I was brought up by a good family not a bad one, yeah I've had a lot of problems in my life, been quite bad actually, all because of you!!
You're a killer, you've killed a lot of people and really they are good people. I'm lucky that you haven't put me in a box cemetery.
Lost loads of my mates and it hurts me, they sometimes blank me 'cause they know I've been on you it's not nice when I've got pin holes in my arms and marks, track marks.
The illness that I go through when I use you and the after effects, cold turkey, clucking, withdrawals, it's the worst feeling that you've put me through, being bad off you.
Wanted to kill myself a few times 'cause I couldn't go through it. Well guess what heroin, I can and did do it. I can beat you anytime. I can control you, you don't control me.
I've got enough will power to get you out of my life for good. I'm strong and much stronger than you can ever be. I'm not losing anything over you.
Goodbye heroin. Never again. Family comes first.
February 25, 2010
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Dear Heroin, I can beat you anytime says schoolgirl then dies 3 weeks later