So, I guess some sort of detailed statement of intent on what I hope to accomplish with this project should be posted, but the problem is...I don't really know what that is! Part of this is going to be a journal on kicking this prescription pain med issue that I have developed, part of this will be dealing with the issues that come up AFTER the physical part is over, such as the mental confusion/lack of clarity, emotional roller-coaster, etc.
Most of this, however, is going to be about how an "ordinary" person deals with the complexities of life in a world that is changing day by day. After all, 100 years ago, we were just really starting to drive cars. Now, we are making plans to go to distant planets. The changes that I have seen in the last 50 years are mind-boggling! Microwaves, computers, cell phones, a digital life-style, etc. It's just crazy.
Anyway, I had another rough night. Just when I think that the worst of my symptoms are over, they come roaring back! Last night it was the hyper-sensitivity and restless leg syndrome. Nothing that 5 shots of Bushmill's in 20 minutes wouldn't handle! Well, along with a Zanaflex and 20 mg of melatonin.
For the sake of better understanding, I was on Fentanyl 200mgc/hr patch every 48 hours, Oxymorphon ER 40 mg.x 2, Oxymorphon IR 20 mg. x 4, Dilaudid 24 mg. x 3, and Oxycodone 40 mg. x 4. First, I cut out the Oxymorphon ER completely. Then the Dilaudid went, followed by the Oxycodone. At that point, I started to taper off of the Fentanyl first by dropping from every 48 hours to every 72. Then I dropped from 200 to 150, then to 100. At that point, I dropped the Oxymorphon IR completely. Then, I went from 100mcg/hr on the fent to 75 mcg, but I brought it back up to every 48 hours. Lastly (which is where I'm at now), I dropped the 75's back down to every 72 hours.
All of the above was done in a 4 month time span. I have 2 more months to go, with the plan being to drop the fent by 25 mcg a month until I get to 25, and then re-evaluate. When I get to that level, I will have some decisions to make! Do I drop the fent completely and treat my condition with a weaker opiate in order to minimize negative reactions? Do I get off of pain pills completely and live in pain, but free of drugs? Do I find a medium which, while it may not be "happy", will at least allow me some quality of life?