The other thing I have noticed as I get further away from using, is that my emotions are on hyper-sensitive. I cry for sometimes no reason. I cry when I think of people and pets that have passed on, and how much I miss them. I cry when I think of the little girl I was, and how young I was when I had to learn how to cope with things no child should be exposed to.
I really really HATE to cry. I have always tried to escape my emotions as too painful to deal with.
Without drugs, I don't know how I will survive my emotions.