One week ago today I smoked methamphetamine for the last time.
Today, I have come to nearly the end of Day 2 on my new prescribed medication for ADHD, methylin.
So, how am I?
So far, really damned good. I am not fiending for meth, and this medication is helping.
I will be honest, I do miss the smoking of the pipe. I don't miss all the "intensity" that was with me nearly all the time when using meth.
Now, this medication. I am actually surprised, I was not really sure it would work. So far, I have not even one complaint, but its early days.
I am functioning exactly where I had hoped I would; completing tasks without losing track of any of them, am not talking all the time nor fidgeting constantly, am not completing other people's sentences or interrupting others conversations.
I had all of the problems listed above during this past week, and some of them were also present (only in greater intensity), when I was using methamphetamine. Yesterday was the first time I have felt free of every single symptom.
I was WRONG to think the meth was doing the work this scripted med seems to be doing.
I feel calmer without even trying, I don't feel this intense need to be doing something every single second, I am not nearly as anxious inside, its hard to explain.
So far, (unfortunately!) my appetite has not decreased at all. I have heard so many stories about people who lose so much weight on meth, as well as on ADHD meds, I sure don't know why that has never happened to me!
I am at a healthy weight that stays pretty constant, I wear the same size clothes I have been wearing for many years.
I don't know if I will develop a tolerance, taking my meds as prescribed. I hope not. I wouldn't want to increase my dosage, considering how I feel now, anyway.
And lastly, I really hope this lack of desire for methamphetamine stays with me.
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End of Day 2