Today, seems to be a day for me to ruminate on my own impulses. I'd love to smoke a cigarette right now, and I am struggling to resist the urge. I find myself reviewing in my mind those urges/impulsive that I handle easily or well versus those that seem overwhelming at times-- and that I give into.
I'm looking for patterns, common themes and motifs, unifying circumstances, and deeper levels of meaning.
I seriously doubt that I will have any earth-shattering revelations or insights-- most revelations and insights, in my experience, require patience and persistence; rarely, have I ever had a "sudden" revelation that was truly important or deeply meaningful. But, I suspect that my ruminations today might give me some slight insights that we strengthen me and help me to do the things that I know that I should do.