It may seem like a sappy notion to the drug inclined individual--"high on life", like some lame anti-drug slogan--but my monkey has been thinking lately and this is exactly how he used to feel: like he was flipped out of his gourd on living itself.
High on life.
Ever since he started using drugs, however, he feels this has gone away to a large degree. Like he lost the knack for getting high without a chemical catalyst.
Do you understand this sentiment?
He's not laying out a "drugs r bad, mm'kay" rap or anything. He likes drugs and thinks they can be used responsibly without losing one's own inherent ability to enjoy and savor life. That they can be used like flourishes rather than the main course, you know?
The word that comes to mind is augmenting.
I'm interested in people's thoughts on being "high on life".
Is it something we just sort of outgrow as the initial rush of puberty and independence wears off? Is is simply something that some of us neglect and thus sort of atrophies; needing to be excersized like an unused muscle? How does one exercise this muscle?
Monkey has a kratom habit. He has been unhappy for a long time. He has felt like there is some invisible Wall that seperates him from happiness. Like he can see that there is a lot of beauty and good out there in that marvelous world, that people can be happy, but he just can't FEEL it. It's out there.
I got a degree in psychology to try to understand the workings and healing of the mind in hopes of helping him and others overcome such invisible walls. But I'm not sure I ever found anything that helps.
Other than kratom. Kratom seems to dissolve the wall, not so much making monkey happy but allowing him the opportunity to get out his little bubble or rut and choose to change his attitude and approach to things.
His current theory and hope is that through physical exercise and getting in shape he will raise endogenous endorphin levels, thus (as far as we understand the pharmacology of the matter) acting in a similar way as kratom in dissolving that damned wall. He wants to be self-sufficient when it comes to happiness. He doesn't think it's an unreasonable goal in life.