Previous night I could not fall asleep and it was for good, because I finally let all emotions out. They have been piling up since funeral.
It is strange how I used to think that I will not reach 27 years and did a lot of stupid things, but now I realised that I have so many things to do that I am affraid of not managing to do them when that day will come.I just can not imagine that this whole process someday will stop.I have to be there for my children and husband.
This funeral really made me think about a lot of things.
But, what is strange, emotions what came to me yesterday were some kind of anger. I know, that it is part of grieving and that finally I just let it all go.
Maybe I am wrong, but I somehow feel like he is gone and is no longer here. It somehow makes everything seem lighter and easier now.