When I was a child, I caught a fleeting glimpse,
Out of the corner of my eye,
I turned to look, but it was gone,
I cannot put my finger on it now, the child has grown,
The dream is gone.
And I have become comfortably numb.
The very nature of our nuture condemns and compels us.
As children we are what we are made to be.
As adults we *must* learn to strip away that which will otherwise lay waste to our true self.
Larkin most accurately describes this state:
They fuck you up, your mum and dad.
They may not mean to, but they do.
They fill you with the faults they had
And add some extra, just for you.
But they were fucked up in their turn
By fools in old-style hats and coats,
Who half the time were soppy-stern
And half at one another's throats.
Man hands on misery to man.
It deepens like a coastal shelf.
Get out as early as you can,
And don't have any kids yourself.
Although I personally feel that last line is a cop-out.
Have kids. But *be* a parent to them, not just some excuse for the fucked up society that spawned *you*, bleating on about how tough it was, wah! wah! wah!
I am surrounded by people of parenting age, being of that wonderful stage in life for the past six years myself, and on the whole I am appalled by the sheer scale of selfish, self-absorbed, ignorance and downright evil-minded behaviour exhibited by the large majority.
No I am not of the "but what about the children!" Maude Flanders school of thought.
I neither hide my children away from developing their understanding of the truth in this world, nor do I expose them to the unnecessarily coarse levels of base ignorance that passes for mainstream culture these days.
Sub-culture? Images of Damn Hippies, Crusties, Tree Huggers, Spiritualists, Vegans and worse.
I'm too damn angry to be part of a Sub-Culture. That would require some sort of "collective" understanding. Fuck that.
Maybe I am so angry *because* I don't feel that where I am coming from fields a large enough team to be so neatly labelled as a Sub-Culture.
There's no votes to be had.
We see dead people.
The political classes don't like that.
Politics - Showbusiness for ugly people. Damn straight.
As for the rest of you:
Stop fucking marrying people you don't like!
Relationships aren't a competition.
"I'd jump in front of a bus for my girlfriend/wife"
"Really? I imagine she'd prefer a back rub now and then instead"
"I need my own space, I want to go down the pub/bar/strip club, with my buddies after work."
"Why are you with someone you don't seem to actually want to spend any time with?"
No I don't know where I am going with this entry. I do know I should stop listening to Floyd while I type though. Fuck it, why not go the whole hog for the next one and put on something from Roger Waters, Radio KAOS? He got almost optimistic at the end of that one, HAH! Look where that went Roger! Yeah the Tide Turned, didn't it?
I know, Amused to Death, that'll lighten the mood(!)