She stayed up for two days waiting
Smoking cigarettes she'd given up long ago
Pacing the floors, fingers swollen from
flicking and clicking her way through boredom and impatience
Eyes red from bleary-eyed peeks and
No sleep and racing thoughts, waiting
Take another green one and wait
Just one more hour, one more
Nothing, nothing but a quick promise and
a flash of future obsession
What is she thinking?
She knows better, but
she's just waiting for a
about to spring at anytime
Undoing her orderly world
(Undo her so she can sleep!)
Nothing, not a word or a promise
Fast-forward the time so she can
wrap a fuzzy pink robe on and
feign sleep for sake of appearances
Just chasing time in a two-day night
A restless dreamer, out of her mind
out of time, not ready for "goodnight"
A frozen pantomime smile
Cold fingers pulled up into sleeves
Legs crossed, her mind chants
worn out mantras with no meaning
She can't answer questions, just
shut the door; go, go away
She's got a few more days
And a penchant for jack-in-the box lies
It made sense when I wrote it. That's all I can say ....
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