So, I have spent the last few months working as a face-to-face fundraiser, a job I have wanted to do for a long time, and I was enjoying.
The work itself was fun, rewarding and involved a lot of travelling, and the small group of people I worked with were a really interesting group with whom I got on extremely well.
It was a very stressful, tiring and thankless job though, and this can start to get you down after a while. It certainly did me. Two days ago, I decided, completely on the spur of the moment, to leave.
Now I'm jobless, and due to wasting time at school getting wasted and skiving off instead of studying, I have few qualifications other than a BTEC in music technology, despite, I think, being a reasonably intelligent person, with something to offer.
So basically my immediate prospects are call center work. It's all there is in my area. I hate working in office environments, the repetetive, pointless nature of the work itself combined with the fact that most people who work in these bloody places are braindead fuckwits, really really depresses me.
Plus I look like an idiot in a shirt and tie, hippies always do.
I have some good stuff on the horizon to look forward to - Boom festival and some time in Portugal in August, and the possibility of some volunteering in Thailand come November/December time, but I just feel like my life completely lacks any long-term direction, and all of the paths I would like to take (getting more into the sciences, or making money from my music) seem closed off to me, and instead I'm gonna have to endure college and student life all over again to try and further myself academically, which I'm not sure I can afford to do, or resign myself to a life of meaningless labour.
Gaaah, what am I gonna do.