"Lost Heart" - China 90s young girl reveals many drug use pictures on the internet

By enquirewithin · Nov 2, 2008 · Updated Nov 2, 2008 · ·
  1. enquirewithin
    90s young girl reveals many drug use pictures on the internet

    This is a cold QQ homepage, pure black colors, white font, decadent expression…its owner is a girl who has just turned 18 years old. Gradually delving into the homepage’s content, a bone-chilling coldness can be felt, surrounding the body. Drugs, fighting…makes people want to ask: Just what kind of lifestyle dominates this girl’s youth?
    “Come see how frightening today’s children are. Not only do they do drugs, they take pictures of it too, and upload them for the public to see.” Last night, a netizen contacted this newspaper, providing a link to a homepage.


    Her homepage shocked the netizen

    After clicking into the website, I first heard the intense music of a DJ playing in a nightclub, accompanied by the groaning and heavy breathing of a man imitating a woman. Looking further, everything was shocking.
    “The room has been booked, the foil placed, the ice pipe prepared. The fire is burning, the ice is running, let’s start, shall we?” This was a caption at the top of the homepage’s front page. From her profile information, her name screen name is “Lost Heart,” she was born in May 1990, only recently turned 18 years old, and her hobby is “tragic weeping.”
    Everything she shares about herself only makes one feel heavy and sad.
    Graduated From: Jail

    Signature: Decadent, lonely beauty, heartbreaking…. Chose the dark night, chose loneliness, select decadence, doomed to a one person world, I chose degenerate.
    In her hobbies, she writes that her best music instrument is the gun, and that she likes “triad/gang/black society violence” movies.

    Her pictures include many scenes of drug use and fights

    Looking at her pictures, there is a high probability that she did indeed graduate from jail. …Amongst her photos is a “Wanted” picture, the head on which appears to be her’s. Looking at the album’s other directories, everything is shocking. There are 10 albums in her folders, amongst them two were called “ice” and “high powder, want fashion,” both of which were viewable by the public.


    Inside, we can see some scenes were taken at home, and some scenes were in KTV rooms. In some pictures, there are plates/trays with straws placed on coffee tables, with dozens of small bags of white powder and stacks of hundred RMB notes next to them. Some pictures have pipes with water for filtering the ice and the tubes used to inhale the fumes, with people looking intoxicated. It is said: they are using specialized tools for doing ice. Other pictures include two very young girls sharing a tray using straws to do drugs. Some of these girls doing drugs, in some pictures, are scantily dressed or even naked.


    In the other folder named “triad/gang/black society,” the pictures include men with various tattoos on their bodies, in various poses. Some are holding knives or guns pointed at each other, some look like they are fighting, and some pictures show injuries from fights, not a single picture is without violence. Amongst these pictures is a guy “Lost Heart” refers to as “My beloved.” He can also be found doing drugs in many of the other pictures.

    Her diary talked about committing suicide

    I tried to get in touch with this girl, but I did not receive any replies, so there is no way to understand her inner feelings, we can only see what her QQ diary reveals. Aside from some topics about emotions, her diary has some content like these: “China triad/gang/black society boss name list”, “I am not a virgin, I am simply self-righteous”, “Adult Theatre” and so on. Through some of the content, you can see how she has changed over time (Note: deletions):
    2008, May 16
    He said on the phone that in two more hours, he can be at my side. I am very excited. Meeting in person is a lot more real than seeing each other over webcam, it feels like we have known each other for so long, I feel like I am the world’s luckiest girl. No matter what happens, no matter how many girls he has, I still believe that when he is in my arms, in his heart is only me. I dare not demand that I am the only girl he likes, only hope to be the one girl has trusts to keep no secrets from, whom he can talk about anything with.


    2008, June 23
    Life recently has been very tiring, lonely, and helpless. Everyday I go online to find happiness, but where is my happiness? To tell the truth, when I am alone at home, I really want to die, want to disappear forever, never to appear again. I want the whole world to leave me alone.
    2008, August 1
    Recently several things that happened one after another that have made me numb, hehe, ever since I met him, my life has been as he said: colorful, or as my older sister says, the stuff of movies. Hehe, there is nothing I can do. Once I have chosen, I cannot go back. I will bravely face what comes next, bravely push through. People have to walk so many paths, no one can foresee what will happen next.
    I trust him, that he has his reasons for whatever he does, so I will support him. Only after meeting him have I known what is love, and will always remember in my heart. Our unspoken relationship is one only you and I know.


    2008, August 14
    Never have I smoked until I have gotten dizzy or drank until I wanted to vomit, but yesterday I really drank too much, But it was not intentional, I only wanted to use alcohol to forget some things. But I was wrong, it actually made me hurt more, alone on a bed crying. Without hearing from you, it felt like I had returned to before. It again made me afraid, my world reduced to waiting. Do not know if this kind of waiting, this kind of worry, this kind of fear will last for how long, I only know that I might soon collapse, that soon I can no longer bear it anymore.

    The news article is long and continues but mostly about other drug users, doctors, sociologists, parents, police, etc. and what they think, not really about “Lost Heart” anymore.


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  1. Benga
    Re: "Lost Heart"-- China 90s young girl reveals many drug use pictures on the interne

    very interesting stuff.
    Any background info or research available on this one ? it looks quite hoaxish and propagandist- which would make sense if the government wanted to something easy, like decadence of youth on a silver tray, to justify coming repression.
  2. MiMoMo
    Re: "Lost Heart"-- China 90s young girl reveals many drug use pictures on the interne

    The additional comments written in after the end of the original article are very intriguing. Many seem to indicate direct government involvement in the facilitation of such activities. With toxic lead toys, contaminated pet foods, poisoned milk, and mandatory organ donation policies (while still alive), one could reasonably expect the worst form of corruptions intertwined, criminal and political.

    It is rather unnerving to imagine a sizeable fraction of such a huge population all snorting cocaine. A billion people (times 2 nostrils) just might sniff the whole of South America! In fact, China is aggresively moving into many South American countries with ferocious development projects. Wait until the Chinese start building cocaine factories on an industrial scale, enough to load entire super tankers full. Oh, my, my...

    China Daily - November 07, 2007 http://www.chinadaily.com.cn/china/2007-11/07/content_6236139.htm
    Half of Shanghai's drug addicts aged under 35. Drug addicts in the city are getting younger, figures from the local drug agency have revealed.
    According to Zhou Weihang, director of the Shanghai anti-drug office, at the end of September, more than 50 percent of the city's 32,000 registered drug users were under 35. In 2006, the figure was 48 percent.

    The highest growth has been in rural areas, as dealers try to avoid detection, Zhou said. "In the past, most drug raids were focused on downtown areas," he said.

    Zhou said many "new" drugs, like ice, ketamine and ecstasy, appeal more to young people and that is why there are now more users aged under 35.

    In the first nine months of this year, 68 percent of the 248 kg of drugs confiscated were new drugs.

    "This was the first time we had seized more new drugs than traditional ones, such as heroin," Zhou said.

    "In addition, more than 5,000 of the addicts registered in the first nine months of the year used new drugs - most of them ice, of which we seized more than 170 kg in the first nine months," he said.

    Zhou said one of the reasons new drugs are so appealing to young people is because they are readily available in entertainment venues.

    They also claim to be able to relieve people of the stresses and strains of city life.

    "But they are just as harmful and addictive as any other drug," he said.

    Zhou highlighted the case of a 23-year-old surnamed Wang who became paranoid after taking a drug known as magu, a methamphetamine similar to ice. Convinced someone was trying to murder him he attacked and killed his own grandmother.

    Zhou said the city government was stepping up its efforts to combat drugs, especially the new ones.

    In the first six months of the year, raids led to the closure of two entertainment venues, while 29 others had their operations suspended.

    And, as of the end of September, 5,791 people had been arrested for trading and using new drugs, he said.

    In addition, the anti-drug office has introduced harsher punishments for those found using or selling drugs.

    Zhou said entertainment venues now face a minimum three-month suspension of operations for allowing drugs to be sold on their premises.

    Also, anyone caught selling or using drugs will face 15 days' detention, while repeat offenders will be forced to take a three-month rehabilitation program.

    Those who continue to offend even after rehabilitation will be forced to undergo an education-through-labor program, as well as taking regular medical examinations, Zhou said.

    Source: China Daily
  3. enquirewithin
    Re: "Lost Heart"-- China 90s young girl reveals many drug use pictures on the interne

    ^^This could be a hoax. The web site it came from was certainly trying to attract traffic. It doesn't look like anything to do with the government. I could be wrong, but that doesn't look like government propaganda to me, more like sensational journalism.

    Young people in China certainly do take meth and ketamine in night clubs and so on and the triads are very powerful (in Hong Kong too). Heroin is probably more of a social problem.

    Out of 1.3 billion people some of them are likely to be exhibitionists. Look at this guy with his snake tongue.

    China does sometimes produce contaminated products (they produce an enormous amount of products which are not harmful-- look around you!), including food, but so do other countries. Government involvement with contaminated food is more to do with the greed of officials rather than a desire to poison anyone. Penalties for drug possession in China are very severe. Drug dealers can be executed.
  4. MiMoMo
    Re: "Lost Heart"-- China 90s young girl reveals many drug use pictures on the interne

    China appears to have embraced greed to guide 'justice policy' as described in the article titled Chinese Junk:

    Many local police are also complicit in the trade, taking a cut of the profits as payment for their silence. One dealer's uncle—a top gun in Sanjiaji's police force—has found another way to cash in on the drug trade: for a fee, he offers guided tours of the poppy fields. Corruption has become systemic. Even though the central government has targeted Gansu in its latest antidrug campaign, a $9,000 bribe can buy a dealer out of a death sentence. "In China, if you have money, you can escape anything. Even death," says a pusher in Lanzhou, who boasts of having bribed his way out of a jail term.

    When local police do need to meet arrest quotas handed down by Beijing, many simply pull out an impounded stash, hand it to a dealer they know and pick up the junkies who come knocking. Arresting users is more lucrative than nabbing pushers because junkies have to pay for their forced rehabilitation in government-run detox centers. Three years ago, according to a police informer, Lanzhou cops handed a bag of white powder to a beggar who lived by the train station and gave him $3 to take it across town. When the vagrant arrived at his destination, they pulled him in for drug trafficking and sentenced him to life imprisonment. That month, the cops received an award for having arrested a record number of dealers.

    And as for "rehabilitation", Chinese style:
    There is no attempt to offer counseling once inmates return home. In Gansu, for instance, provincial officials explain with a straight face that after addicts complete a three-month detox program, they are considered cured for life. And the thousands of repeat inmates? "Ah, they just weren't trying hard enough," insists an antidrug official in Lanzhou, where government coffers are padded by the $1,000 fee thousands of addicts must shell out for their compulsory rehab. "It's their fault, not ours."
  5. MrG
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    Trust me, there are not many internet "funnies" that can prompt this old boy to use the full abbreviation above, but I was just thankful that I hadn't been drinking anything at the time I read those words.

    My desk would have been ruined!

    Chris Morris, where are you!, Come on!, Let's be 'avin' youuuuuuu!

    [our non-UK/ChrisMorris/FootieFan viewers may wish to press the red button at this point where a message will be displayed in a region-friendly, appropriately soothing format.

    Our Chinese viewers will be informed that the tragic "Lost Heart" of this article was thankfully saved due to the good vigilence of the "netizen" who reported her need for help to his local party office. His good deed will not go unrewarded and neither will any other "netizen" who also wishes to help any other "Lost Heart" that they feel may be unaware that, they too, are in need of officially-approved "treatment".

    We can assure all viewers that said "Lost Heart" is alive and well and being re-trained by her local Operating Regional Government Ancilliary Network, to become one of the many volunteers for Direct Option Natural Order Redistribution. She will be unavailable for comment for the forseeable future.

    Our viewers in the west will be be shown images of many of the fine products produced by the great nation of China with a mind to purchasing some of them.

    Thank you for your co-operation.]
  6. Benga
    Re: "Lost Heart"-- China 90s young girl reveals many drug use pictures on the interne

    sensationalist, absolutely.
    i've been trying to access the original or a copy of the original homepage but can't seem to find it online. The QQ link gives writing on the subject http://news.qq.com/a/20080828/000343_2.htm and the 163.com gives another article, would love to see the original layout.
  7. enquirewithin
    Re: "Lost Heart"-- China 90s young girl reveals many drug use pictures on the interne

    I can't find it either. It's probably been taken offline.
  8. MiMoMo
  9. enquirewithin
    Re: "Lost Heart"-- China 90s young girl reveals many drug use pictures on the interne

    Ketamine would seem much more prevalent than cocaine (not surprising as ketamine is made in China).
  10. MiMoMo
    Re: "Lost Heart"-- China 90s young girl reveals many drug use pictures on the interne

    The South China Morning Post Dial 'D' for drugs
    On some housing estates, getting high is as easy as having a pizza delivered
    Lau Kit-wai Updated on Oct 24, 2008

    As frequent police raids over the past few years made it too risky for them to use clubs and discos, Kelvin and his friends hung out at each other's homes instead. "We would pool the different drugs we had - stuff like Special K [ketamine] and ng tsai [nimetazepam] - and get high together," the former drug user recalls.
    Although it has been driven out of clubs, the youth drug scene has mushroomed out of sight at private parties, particularly in public housing estates in the North District. This shift has turned some teenage users such as Kelvin into small-time dealers, providing delivery services that some describe as being as convenient as ordering takeaway food.
    The 18-year-old, who dropped out after Form Three, initially got his supply from friends associated with a triad "Big Brother". All his classmates had their own Big Brothers, and it wasn't long before Kelvin attached himself to a self-proclaimed triad member who put him to work selling ketamine to other youngsters.
    "Each small bag went for about HK$100 and if I sold them all I could earn almost HK$10,000. The deal was that in the end I had to pay my Big Brother HK$4,000," he says.
    Kelvin kicked his habit earlier this year with the help of a social worker and now works in a coffee shop. But anti-drug officials warn that the guerilla tactics now adopted by users and dealers will make the fight to check drug use far more difficult.
    "In the past we mostly relied on the police as gatekeepers against drugs, but distribution is now highly decentralised - it's not one major dealer selling drugs to many young people, but many young minor dealers selling to their friends," says psychiatrist Ben Cheung Kin-leung of the Action Committee Against Narcotics (Acan).
    As teenage drug use moves into homes - mostly in public housing or tong lau [Chinese tenements] - it has become almost impossible for social workers to keep tabs on it. In the past, they would set up booths outside nightclubs or at public playgrounds to reach out to youngsters at risk, but such strategies have become irrelevant.
    "You might be able to ask students not to visit a disco, but how can you ask them not to go to their friend's house? It's now very difficult to differentiate drug-taking activities from normal socialising among youngsters," says Cheung, who chairs the Acan panel on treatment and rehabilitation.
    Outreach social worker Choi Wai-leuk says drug sales among young people from Sha Tin to Tin Shui Wai have become as commonplace and convenient as ordering food delivery. Relying on personal networks in schools and in the neighbourhood as well as word-of-mouth, many young dealers have built extensive customer bases.
    "The kids are smart and they only do business with people they are familiar with. There are different contact people for different drugs sold in each district and [teenage dealers] have their own system," says Choi. "It's very difficult for an outsider to infiltrate their circles."
    Kelvin describes some of the precautions he took. He never handed over drugs in person unless the buyer was a very close friend. If a delivery was to be made to another district, he would take a taxi to avoid running into police on the street (the buyer paid the fare).
    "I would wrap the drugs in a piece of tissue and hide it in the housing estate - under a bench or among some weeds. After I got the money, I would direct the buyer where to pick up the goods," he says.
    Some enterprising types even became known as specialists who offered either better quality or cheaper party drugs.
    Another former user, "Ah Gun", specialised in ketamine, which he began distributing last year to supplement his small salary as an office assistant.
    "I only sold ketamine, but if the buyers wanted other party drugs I could order them. For each delivery I earned between HK$500 and HK$1,000," he says.
    Users found Ah Gun's service quick and convenient, and as his contact number passed from one to another, he built up a customer network that stretched from Tuen Mun to Mong Kok. Most were youngsters aged between 17 and 22.
    "They didn't look like bad guys or gang members, so I wasn't very worried about them attracting the attention of the police," says Ah Gun, 22, who has since quit taking drugs and now works in a social centre promoting crime prevention.
    "I received three or four orders a month and delivered the goods in person. Once I even dropped off the drugs at a Mong Kok shoe store, where my buyer was working as a salesman."
    Social workers say the distribution of drugs through circles of friends has contributed to a rise in juvenile drug abuse. Narcotics Division statistics show that the number of drug abusers under 21 reported in the first six months of this year was 2,064, compared with 1,686 in the same period last year - an increase of 22.4 per cent.
    Outreach workers say the actual figure is likely to be higher, as many teachers do not report drug abuse among students for fear of tarnishing their school's reputation. And symptoms of drug use, such as a constant runny nose or finding it difficult to concentrate, usually take three to four years to become obvious, so there may be a number of hidden cases.
    "The problem of drug abuse is like Sars - it is infectious. Once the `virus' gets into the community, it will spread among friends like an epidemic," says Cheung.
    He says research by frontline social workers earlier this year found that the average age of first-time teenage users is between 11 and 12 years old, compared to 13 or 14 a few years ago. "Primary Six and Form One students are also at risk." Daniel Shek Tan-lei, convener of the Narcotics Division's research advisory group, says many underlying socioeconomic issues contribute to juvenile drug use, so stepping up law enforcement isn't enough to check the trend of drug use in the home.
    Many parents in North District, especially those from low-income groups, have to work long hours and are seldom home. With community ties crumbling in many districts, however, people can't rely on neighbours to help keep an eye on their children. As a result, some youngsters even use drugs with classmates at home during lunch and return to school in a daze, Shek says.
    "Fifty years ago it would be impossible for addicts to take heroin in a squatter area without others knowing about it because the relationship between neighbours was close. Now, people just close their doors and take no notice of anything beyond their home."
    This breakdown of communities means drug-heavy parties in public housing estate flats are ignored by neighbours, says Shek, a social work professor at Chinese University.
    "It's difficult to identify drug use in private residences, but there must be traces of something fishy going on, such as large numbers of young people regularly visiting a flat, partying, noise and loud music."
    Limited social mobility is also fuelling a sense of hopelessness and boredom among young people, leading more to turn to drugs, Shek says. "Even those who are well-educated don't earn much now, not to mention those who are less educated and who are most vulnerable."
    Social workers are discovering more cases of addiction among educated young people in respectable jobs, he says. "The [drug] situation in Hong Kong now is a bit like that in the 1950s, when many people took heroin because they saw no hope for the future." With job prospects looking increasingly bleak in the wake of the global financial crisis, Cheung says juvenile drug abuse will only worsen. "There is a strong connection between unemployment and drug abuse," he says. "We have to be prepared for a much graver challenge."

    MiMoMo added 18 Minutes and 52 Seconds later...

    [FONT=Verdana,Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif]South China Morning Post - [/FONT][FONT=Verdana,Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif]Saturday September 27 2008[/FONT]

    [FONT=Arial,Helvetica,Geneva]Youth drug abuse cases jump 22%[/FONT]

    [FONT=Verdana,Helvetica,Arial]Fox Yi Hu http://archive.scmp.com/showarticles.php[/FONT]

    [FONT=Verdana,Helvetica,Arial]Cases of drug abuse by young people rose 22.4 per cent in the first half of the year to 2,064, compared with 1,686 in the same period last year, the Central Registry of Drug Abuse shows. [/FONT]
    [FONT=Verdana,Helvetica,Arial]Overall drug cases rose to 8,657 in the first half, up 3.6 per cent on the same period last year. Heroin remained the most commonly used illegal drug, but the number of heroin users in the first half dropped 3.8 per cent year on year to 4,643. [/FONT]
    [FONT=Verdana,Helvetica,Arial]There were 4,734 reported users of psychotropic substances in the first half, with ketamine remaining the most common. Reported ketamine users in the first half rose to 2,858, up 28.1 per cent, with 61 per cent of them were aged under 21. [/FONT]
    [FONT=Verdana,Helvetica,Arial]The number of cocaine users surged 63.7 per cent to 401 in the first half, while the number of users of triazolam, midazolam or zopiclone fell 34.1 per cent year on year. The number of users of Ecstasy, cannabis and nimetazepam declined 8.6, 4.1 and 17.9 per cent respectively. [/FONT]
    [FONT=Verdana,Helvetica,Arial]A quarterly meeting yesterday of the Action Committee Against Narcotics noted that the top three places where young people used drugs were at home or a friend's home (65.5 per cent), a recreation area, public garden or public toilet (40.7 per cent) and a disco or karaoke (32.6 per cent). [/FONT]
    [FONT=Verdana,Helvetica,Arial]The committee said it would promote a youth-care initiative called Path Builders, recommended by the Task Force on Youth Drug Abuse. Committee chairman Choi Yuen-wan said: 'We welcome all in society to become Path Builders to pave the way for our young generation.' [/FONT]
    [FONT=Verdana,Helvetica,Arial]Commissioner for Narcotics Sally Wong Pik-yee said government would join various sectors to help youngsters stay away from drugs. [/FONT]
    [FONT=Verdana,Helvetica,Arial]'Path Builders offers a menu for the community to render assistance in different ways,' she said. 'Collaboration among government and various stakeholders ... is making the campaign a success.' [/FONT]
  11. savingJenniB
    Re: "Lost Heart"-- China 90s young girl reveals many drug use pictures on the interne

    Reading, looking in over ~ there's something not right ~ not honest about this.

    I believe this is entirely fabricated propaganda. It just doesn't click! Too tragic ~ too slick. Do the math ~ this does not make sense, now really?
    Over kill for shock appeal. What would be the win for this girl to post.

    Anyone involved in this type of lifestyle in China spends a majority of their
    concealing it and attempting not to attract any attention, what so ever!

  12. enquirewithin
    Re: "Lost Heart"-- China 90s young girl reveals many drug use pictures on the interne

    To me it seems very likely that there is a lot of exaggeration involved. It could be story fabricated to generate hits, but I have read similar stuff on English language sites. Of course, it's stupid to post pictures of oneself taking part in illegal activities, but people often do, for a variety of motives. Can you expand on what you mean about the math not making sense?

    The "Lost Heart" story seems too obscure to be government propaganda. The figures about drug use are government figures and would be no more trustworthy than those of the US government.":)
  13. purplehaze
    Re: "Lost Heart"-- China 90s young girl reveals many drug use pictures on the interne

    I dont have anything to say about the article other than its bullshit. Who cares really, because they made it sound so horrific. What happened to the guys back is my question. And the moron who made himself a snake tounge, thats disgusting and your still a 4ft tall bitch even after mutilating yourself you idiot.
  14. Pondlife
    Re: "Lost Heart"-- China 90s young girl reveals many drug use pictures on the interne

    I've seen that picture of the guy with his back all cut up on other sites. I don't think that it's really linked to this story at all.

    Here's one example from the shock site rotten.com (NSFW): http://poetry.rotten.com/knife-fight/
  15. purplehaze
    Re: "Lost Heart"-- China 90s young girl reveals many drug use pictures on the interne

    Lol i like this from the site you posted that also has the exact same picture of the guys back, "You should see the other guy." The other guy better be fuckin dead, cause you are fucked dude.
  16. FrankenChrist
    Re: "Lost Heart"-- China 90s young girl reveals many drug use pictures on the interne

    Hey enquirewithin, I think I've seen the picture of the slashed back before. It's apparently the result of a knifefight. Did you add it or did you find it on that page somewhere?
  17. enquirewithin
    Re: "Lost Heart"-- China 90s young girl reveals many drug use pictures on the interne

    Those are certainly knife wounds. All the pictures are from the same article, supposedly from a girl's home page which is now apparently offline.
  18. savingJenniB
    Re: "Lost Heart"-- China 90s young girl reveals many drug use pictures on the interne

    Yes, it seems way too familiar to me, as well. . . Think it was going around Craig's List ~ Rants & Raves?

    I smell fish ~ conspiracy fish ~ one of my fave's!

  19. enquirewithin
    Re: "Lost Heart"-- China 90s young girl reveals many drug use pictures on the interne

    That's the same picture OK! :)
  20. purplehaze
    Re: "Lost Heart"-- China 90s young girl reveals many drug use pictures on the interne

    I think the misconception is enquirewithin is not responsible for any pictures related to this article, at the bottom of each picture you can see they are all clearly linked together because they all have the same logo, direct from the article i would assume and enquirewithin holds no responsibility if the pictures are real or not.

    In phazes opinion this story has atleast a few fabrications from here and there but on the same hand could have very well happened.
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