Lottery winning teenager Callie Rogers has admitted that her instant riches led her to a 'drug spree' as she spent almost 250,000 pounds on cocaine.
The 22-year-old now has only 20,000 pounds left from her 1.9million pound jackpot that she won at 16 years of age.
She told News of the World: "I honestly wish I'd never won the lottery money - and knowing what I know now I should have just given it all back to them.
"I was just too young to cope with suddenly having that amount in the bank when I'd come from nothing.
"In the past six years I've sunk into a black hole - a black hole that at one point I thought I could never crawl out of.
"I was spending a fortune on cocaine, a nasty evil drug which tears your life apart. I'll be honest, about 1/4 million pounds of my win has been wasted on it. Most of it wasn't for me, it was for my ex Nicky Lawson who was addicted to it.
"But it was all my money that bought it. And that makes me absolutely disgusted with myself for allowing that to happen. I might as well have thrown it down the toilet."
She added: "I started taking coke within weeks of winning the Lottery and pretty soon I was hooked. It made me forget about all the problems in my life and at the start made me feel like everything was OK.
"But that didn't last long and soon drugs made me fall into a deep, dark place. Somewhere which made me feel I didn't want to live any more.
"I honestly just felt so low I thought in death I'd find a safer happier place."
"I won't lie, I've blown most of it," she said.
"But, do you know what? I don't care.
"Because all that money has brought me is heartache. Yes I enjoyed buying fast cars, holidays and clothes for the baby but honestly I'm glad it's nearly all gone.
"I have the 20,000 pounds in the bank, and that's about it. But that's a lot more than most 22-year-olds," she added.
August 30, 2009
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