Something.. that is for sure. It is 2:40am on Christmas Day and after giving my lady her very special gift; my sweet lovin' I learned that she is completely deaf in her right ear and has been since she was 15 years old. I met her after I was released from prison and she has lived with me for the past 13 months and we were together on and off while I lived by myself prior to that... For 2 whole years I have been with her.. I am trying to make sense of it all.
When we met she told me she had a brother. I never knew that I was going to fall in love with the girl whos' brother blew his hand off with a half a stick of dynamite. Apparently the blast ruptured her ear drum and she has been living with half her sense of sound.
And all those times I put headphones on her head for her to hear the music I was making, she wasn't hearing it in stereo! I am in tears as I write this because it took so much for me to fall in love with her, she didn't want to appear any more broken than she is.
So many things make sense to me now. This beautiful girl who pestered me while I pushed her away, pestered me more, and more I pushed, saw something beautiful in me, a washed up psychedelic chem hack, and here she is, my 39yr old Shannon who has been living a life I can't even fathom.
I am humbled this Christmas.