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  1. Paperthinheart
    It's been three months. How did I get here?

    But I knew I was coming here.

    It just happened so gradually and so quickly at the same time. How can this be? Time can't be so wrong.

    She turned me away. She fucking turned me away when I needed somewhere to go. I needed her. I needed to get out of the cold and she said she'd always have a place for me always. She makes no sense and thinks I'm plotting behind her back. Her anger is explosive and frightening.

    I have no self. I have lived to take care of her as much as i can. But my gradual descent into daily use, yeah it's really not good and its a fucking steep cliff I'm trying to climb. I need to get my shit under control and I'm having some fucked up problems that I caused for myself by choosing meth.

    But her descent? Is into bipolar-esque periods of extreme rage and then sweet and loving caring best friend. She's got 3 substances she's addicted to now and plus gambling. And she turned me away when I needed somewhere safe to go in the middle of the night because I got stood up and I was upset. She turned new away and said hurtful things and tried to hurt me as much as possible.

    Thanks you're my best friend forever and always.

    I had to cut ties. I made a plan with someone who cares about me and im going to get clean. My heart is broken but she's manipulating me into giving her money and drugs, cleaning up her pig sty that looks like that one tweaker house in breaking bad, these nonsensical rages are scary. I can take getting treated badly and still try to send love back, but she has sucked my well dry. I have nothing left to give her.


    I told her I am done with her. Now I'm a hot mess. My chest hurts. I feel guilty and I already miss her. Wtf why. Why.

    Because earth is actually hell. I can't stay awake without fucking drugs, I'll sleep for 14 hours. And she's fucking insane. I wouldn't be upset if anything bag happened to me, I deserve it. Falling asleep while typing this.

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