I used to know this girl (a friend of a friend) who statistically speaking, never really had a chance. I will spare you all the gorey (sp?) Mom had her at 15, was addicted to cocaine and an alcoholic that had 4 more kids with a few different men and never really loved or took care of them. OK I guess she did love them in her own way but she sure had a funny way of showing it. Her father was in prison her whole life (she is 26 and he just now got out) and she didn't have any communication with him until she was 21 years old.
While this girl has made some questionable choices and may not have reached her full potential, she did pretty good with what she had to work with. She's got some issues, sure, who doesn't? But she handles them well.
For a long time this girl was very against drugs of any kind just because of the effect they had on her life. The most partying she did was having a few drinks. And she didn't even start drinking until she was 19 or 20...
As she got further and further from her childhood and the bad memories the pain faded she started to relax a little bit. In the last couple of years she has done some experimenting of her own and has had a really good time doing it. She keeps it under control for the most part, but sometimes she scares herself, because she really likes the way she feels on uppers and she starts having flashes of what could happen if she is not careful. Sometimes she thinks she would've been better off leaving well enough alone and never going there, then she tells herself to do that would have given all that pain she has overcome a place in her life. She even talked to her therapist about it and he assured her that she is not her mother, she has proven that by now. By her age her mother was a good 10 years into a downward spiral that has no end.
I know she will be ok, she has always taken care of business when it came down to it, but I worry about this girl. She is walking a fine line and I don't want to see her end up on the wrong side of it...
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