For 3 months I have stopped using something so destructive it has caused stress and upset, brought me paranoia and contributed to my relapse into depression.
And now my eldest daughter is using it, I don't want her to be damaged by it the way it has damaged me - she is still in the early stages of thinking that it is fun.
I am taking about Facebook.
At first, I thought it was great. Easy to get hold of, and introduced me to friends old and new. It was like a world within a world, and I was amazed at how many of my friends were users. I knew all the risks, and I knew I was in complete control.
But before long it started to become addictive. I would use it in bed before going to sleep, and before getting out of bed in the morning - and almost constantly during the day.
And then it started getting ugly.
I was stupid, and opened a private message from someone I didn't know. Inside it was a hate filled, bullying rant about my disability. And a few days later, another one from another fake profile, containing more hurtful remarks.
The only people on my friends list were people I knew in real life, and the things mentioned in the messages were only known by friends. So I knew that the nasty messages were coming from a "Friend" using a fake profile.
I became paranoid and suspicious of everyone.
I deleted my profile....and went cold turkey.
I now feel cut off and isolated, one or more of my friends sent messages that were so cruel, it was as if I was in the school playground surrounded by bullies.
Who would have thought that something that has damaged me so much is legal?!