I am tired of screaming. It doesn't change a thing. But I do it still. At this moment, I am screaming silently. This life is proving tough. I don't know how I'll make it. Inside is chaos. Outside, people who don't know me think I am chill, together, happy. I am happy for moments, that seem to pass like the breeze. I am at peace with giving up the things I craved for so long. I am HAPPY that they are not apart of my life. The man that I love doesn't believe it. At least I don't think so. He found solace with coversation with another woman. I trust that he has left well enough alone, but how does anyone know for sure in this age of e-mail, and passwords?
I don't know how to proceed. I know what will give me peace. I don't want to be there with those people. They judge, and i don't want to be judged.
I feel as though my life is falling apart. Just at the moment that it should be together.
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