I don't know if it's in my body or in my mind, but I am very sensitive to recreational drugs overall. Few beers and a joint can knock me out and make me unable to stand properly, let alone control my thoughts - I start nodding out and become paranoid if someone around starts giving me bad trips, like telling me that the cops are coming or so.
Last night I had to walk home few kilometers because I missed the last bus, and the whole time I thought that somebody was following me with intention to rob me, so I held my hand close to my knife the whole time
Acid really makes me lose myself, sometimes in a good way, sometimes not, MDMA makes me lose all my inhibitions and control, and speed makes me feel like a superman, and that's why I love it so much.
I see people around me that can take a few ecs and still feel pretty chill or rail for the whole night and not talk for a moment. I just don't have that kind of control over my mind.
I sometimes wonder where would my life go if I never tried any psychoactive substances at all. What kind of person would I be? Would I be a more stable, happy person overall or would I suffer more because of the experiences I missed in my life?