SWIM was put in a position today to get a sterile syringe and some decent gear.
he gave in to the temptation, i mean he hadnt been TOTALLY clean for the 6 weeks but he'd only had 2/3 lines. he just had a bag. IV. tells me it feels so good and now all he wants to do is spend all night up feelin good and then score another tomorrow. he had been on a path of abstinence, but maybe with the help of these prescription pills he's on(listed elsewhere...benzo, tricyclic and anti-psychotic.) he will be able to keep it a 'casual' thing...and try and only get good decent gear for IV. he'll always go sterile. never share. swim dont even do that bleach and boil shit he use a pin 1-5 times b4 puttin it in the sin bin. dependin on how sharp it stays, but....
SWIM cant help but feel bad. his family, friends all thought he ws gettin better the prescribed way. but maybe SWIM can use heroin IV casually as an aid to the mood swings and problems dealing with emotion. i mean, its the cuts of the powder that fuck up your physical body(veins, heart, etc) is it not? dia/diacetylmorphine is safe other than overdose and addiction. so long as its sterile. correct?
SWIM just felt that way like opening up ,,, ,,, ,,, and this feels so right for SWIM. so long as he keep away the junkie reputation his life should stay in track.
must be tired my eyes are tryn to force themselves shut ... keep losing focus too(optically) must be the quetiapine. i hate that shit. forced sleep. better with a good workout all night but no ima sleep tonight then i think SWIM will get up b4 noon to get money that hes due. sort out cash to score. swim keeps tellin me he wants to get a 20sack but gonna complain about the size of the one he got tonight(or last nbyte rather...damn its early)...def not 100mg. or even a FAIR quantity, you know?
hes gonna try it, just medicinally along with his prescription, just to see if a small (half bag) hit can help with the anxiety and paranoia. please no lectures, send your vibes his way but rmember...it is relatively safe till you airbubble your vein or get bad cuts. but this stuff cookd to a yellow-brown-ish liquid with no residue...so that crystallizing shit is gone.
do you think its possible that used safely and responsibly and not going overboard,
ps. a tip on an in-conspicuous spot to pin rather than SWISS scarring his arms. leg? not the penis. he tore about an inch down his fucking foreskin when fucking this chick after a heavy drink/uppers binge.
AT LEAST,SWISS DOES THINK HE COULD USE A BAG A DAY ALONG WITH THE 5OMG DIAZEPAM(HOPIN TO GET PUT UP TO NITRAZEPAM(SWISS'S FAVE, HE LOVES TO SNORT 2.5MG UP LEFT NOSTRIL THEN 2.5MG UP THE RIGHT ONE-AFTER-THE-OTHER)
* CONSTRUCTIVE CRITICISM
* SAFETY TIPS
* OPINION ON A 'CASUAL' OR 'MEDICINAL' USAGE
WOULD ALL BE APPRECIATED greatly.
thanks forv all your help, in advance. plus i think the time difference is helpin me be there with members from difrent time zones(evn tho its a .co.uk.)
oh, and btw, does anyone like SWISS's drugs-forum.co.uk liability contract on my blog/profile page?
would admin accept a written contract signed by SWISS so that SWISS could stop calling himself SWISS and call himself B***Y? ill post it anywhere it needs to go and it'll be a foolproof contract(im good at puttin em together so theres no loopholes on either side, administration PM with details of how SWISS could go around doing things THAT way please admins*:thumbsup:*:thumbsup:*:thumbsup:*
SWISS a.k.a Billy