(Yep, its the narrator voice again...this is a blog I wrote about a month ago.. yeah it's a meth induced rant, enjoy!!!)
So they tell you in treatment the definition of Insanity is repeating the same behavior over and over and over and expecting different results. This would be how Albert Einstien had defined insanity.
When researching other sources definitions of Insanity include:
"Trying to make sense out of something that makes no sense"
"Trying to have a normal relationship with an 'abnormal' person."
"Being insane and not knowing it."
In reality, the mental health world does not use the term "insane" and its only official use is in criminal law in which it's defined as "having a diagnosed mental illness, and not understanding the difference between right and wrong or illegal vs. legal, or not recognizing the consequences of one's actions."
In NA they go one to say that "we have a disease: progressive, incurable, and fatal. One way or another went out and bought our destruction on the time payment plan! All of us, from the junkie to the pill popper, have one thing in common: we seek our destruction a bag at a time, a few pills at a time, or a bottle at a time until we die. This is at least part of the insanity of addiction. Ultimately we pay for our disease with our lives." (this would be the part I referred to in my previous blog.. where I feel like my life after treatment without drugs is more insane)
The basic text also quotes "We cannot change the nature of the addict or addiction. We can help to change the old lie "Once and Addict, always an addict," by striving to make recovery more available."
Now that is something I have always struggled with. I grew up being fed that lie, "once a __ always a ___" Even when it didn't pertain to addiction. "Once a drunk always a drunk, Once a bulimic always a bulimic" and so on, anyway you get the point. I always found that saying as a reminder of the temptations you must face every day, and that you are always susceptible to a relapse. So to change my thinking on this saying is hard.(not really sure what I was trying to say.. yeah...smoke another bowl)
I believe it goes along with all the stigmas that are placed upon you and stick with you for the rest of your life. Like me, people will be saying for the next 20 or so years that I'm a drug addict. Because I'm on disability I'm also deemed "crazy", high suicide risk, socially and occupationally inept. Other things that stick with a person include, their a drunk, they have a felony, they beat their significant other. Now some should follow people, like a pedophile, or sex offender, but then I think who I am to judge others (although the pedophile, and rapists yeah people have the right to know)
(That last line was NOT the narrator voice.... I would go on and finish this rant.. but I have no clue where the hell I was going with it... but it was funny when I tried to read it, and it's my blog, I'll rant if I want lol.. hope you all enjoyed)