This has been a terrible week. Monday I started throwing up in school and went home early. Tuesday I still felt like crap and realized I was sick from stress. Going to have to drop one of my classes to deal with everything.
Friday I found out that two of my friends, two people who were going to get involved with my performance group, got into a drunken fight over a sandwich. It ended with the guy shooting her multiple times in the back and her dieing on a neighbors porch.
Last night my group had a charity gig, we were a little disappointed at the crowed, and about not getting a featured slot, about not being allowed to light things on fire, but it was a charity gig, we got lots of fruit and cheese and to hang out together. It was lame, but not the end of the world. Well this one girl we had come brought a photographer who was a total prick and after having his head up his ass all night, went and picked a fight with the head of the organization running it "on our behalf" screaming and swearing at him in front of a bunch of patrons. I was absolutely mortified and humiliated. He nearly ruined our chances of being involved with a VERY BIG dance oriented show on a major national TV network.
I hate to say it, Spucky is right. I'm not happy here at DF anymore. I've been disheartened to see so many people come and want to turn this into Yahoo Answers. We used to have all sorts of innovative research, fascinating questions and break through ideas, now people just want to get fucked up and be pissy that we have rules. There are a few people doing the good work, Phenylethylamine, Ron69, Piglet, and a few others. But so many newbies are coming here and just being useless, refusing to even a mediocum of research before posting their most basic of questions.
I need some time away from here, I need to work on school, I need to heal myself, I need to get Pyromancy set up for the coming season, I need to de-stress from this place. I'm going to ask Alfa for a month long ban, to avoid the temptation of coming back every hours like I have been. Maybe when school is done I'll feel better.
I want to taken everyone for their support, especially Jalateka who sent me a wonderful PM the other day when I really needed it.
I'll be back soon enough, hopefully a bit happier, a bit nicer (I said a bit, don't expect miracles) and once again excited to be part of the best damn drug information site online today!
Love you all, be back soon.
Love sets Fire.