Swim was just thinking today about the ups and downs he has had during his short but still the longest time ever for him in recovery. He has 5 1/2 months clean now from his drug of choice heroin and the past couple of weeks, life has been so great! Making new friends, earning trust and respect back, feeling mentally and physcially better, etc.
However, just today, for some weird reason, he has been really irritable and just not in a good mood. He's not even sure why he's having me write this other than this community on DF has helped him so much in his recovery. He has tried telling himself that recovery and life itself has its ups and downs but its not making him feel any better. He doesn't wanna go relapse (or at least haven't had really any major thoughts or cravings) but just feels weird or something.
Swim's still living with his parents (since they took him in when he got kicked outta last rehab and had nowhere to go) and he is extremely grateful for that; however, he's 22 and feel like a child again living there. He wants to get on with life but don't have a job and isn't in school. He plans on going back to school next semester and his parents said they would help with financing for it if he stay clean. Not really sure where was going with that but anyways he still feel good about swimself and self-confidence and self-esteem has skyrocketed since when he was using and when he first got clean.
The thought of heroin, crack, alcohol, etc still crosses swi- mind occasionally but he knows that if he were to go back into that shit again, he can't make it through another detox, rehab, etc as he's been through 7 rehabs already at age 22. Swim attend 1-2 NA meetings a week and feels like thats enough since he just goes to remind himself not to ever fall back into the old habits and what it feels like to be using, etc. I guess what I am just trying to ask or get my message across is how do others feel in recovery on here that have gotten to this point in recovery at a little over 5 months? Any words of advice of what swim can do to improve or help to make sure to avoid relapse?
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