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Shambala - Adventures in Utopia

Posted 03-10-2015 at 21:02 by welshlittlepony

At the start of the year (2015) I managed to get hold of a ticket the the Shambala festival held at a secret location in Northamptonshire. Couldnt wait!

After many months of waiting August bank holiday came around, bags packed, coach ticket for the shambala express sorted, head to Bristol where the coach pickup is expecting maybe 40 to 50 other people to be at the meet point, boy was I shocked, hundreds of Shambalans waiting to get on the 15 coaches waiting for us!

The spirit of the festival was alive on the way to the journey, ended up talking to a few people on the train who were going (I was flying solo at this festival) met up with more shambalans at Bristol train station. Everyone was so friendly, waiting for the coach I overheard someone saying they wanted a cup of tea, luckily for him i had plenty to spare!...
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Question about opioids and overdosing

Posted 25-09-2015 at 13:32 by SlothmanLA

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I am very concerned about my health because of a breathing problem I've been having for a while now. The first time I noticed it was when I was taking hydrocodone to get high a few years ago. I'm an addict and I used to take too many at once. I remember when I took a lot, I would gasp for air when I was trying to go to sleep and it was really scary, like an anxiety attack. It's like my body forgot to breathe. When I was awake during the daytime, I would have similar symptoms and my body would twitch. Now, to this day I have similar problems even when I'm not taking opioids. I understand how a fatal overdose works, how the body feels so good it forgets to breathe and you become unconscious.

What I want to know is if you overdose on an opioid but survive, can you have permanent brain damage, permanent breathing problems,
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The hardest week of my life

Posted 22-09-2015 at 03:04 by trippymindfuk

I have just had the hardest week of my life. I became homeless, got in to a few arguments with my mom, got the cops called on me 3 times in 3 days.....got arrested once, which means that I violated my felony probation.....I had to stay in a shitty motel for 2 nights, then I stayed in a trap house for a few days where the cops were also called once over some dumb drama and I hid in the bathroom.....Oh, I also lost my job where I got into an argument with my mom and the cops showed up. I also slept outside one night. I am currently at my best friend's house. I have a warrant and can't stay here long so I am going to turn myself in next week. I have to do a year and a half to 2 years. I have got 14 months in on this charge so I know how to do time....This shit is nothing new, I'm tired of it....ready to get this charge out of the way and move...
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Letting The Rapid Thoughts Dissipate

Posted 19-09-2015 at 04:39 by Drugfreekid

Work in progress. There will be no focus other than fixing the problems that my negligence has caused.
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cultural relativism

Posted 16-09-2015 at 17:14 by Joe-(5-HTP)
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Who are we to say our culture is better than anyone elses, you may ask. Well, it's part of my culture to think it's better than other people's culture. Who are you to say that my culture is wrong? I mean, that was the proposition we began with right..

It's bizarre to me that people who start walking down the relativist road nonetheless feel they have some sort of basis to judge that a certain culture, typically the aggressor in a struggle, is wrong. If you accept relativism, then there is no objective basis on which to say a culture, whether it is an aggressor or not, is wrong.

It's not even accurate to say that the aggressor is intellectually wrong for not accepting relativism. It's perfectly easy to accept that morality is relative depending on culture and still accept that part of your culture involves believing...
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with great power comes great responsability.

Posted 15-09-2015 at 04:48 by highlikeplanes

Snap back to reality.
Past 3 days have all been a hazy blur
Today was the first day of school and i didnt go. I had to sleep off the drugs and catch up on sleep
I sorta have motivation to go but..... all i really wanna do is meth and read and learn about everything and anything for the rest of my life, lol.
I know school is important though cause what else could you do with all the info acquired through self education ?
Nobodys going to take a high school drop-out seriously.
Therefore you must seek out the most best and biggest degree that you could possibly get , so that you will look important and 'smart' to the people of society.

Sucks doesnt it ? You could come up with something HUGE and people will ask, and your response will be... oh i have a degree in wikipedia and internet...
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Inspiring Books on Opioid Addiction/Recovery

Posted 12-09-2015 at 05:31 by TryingToGetRight

I'd love a copy the human brain and psychology behind the addiction truly intruiges the inner addict in new
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My Penis.

Posted 04-09-2015 at 00:25 by Mindless
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I'd like to talk to you about my penis. Come on, we've all seen a few and some of us have clapped eyes on more than others (you know who I'm taking to). So stop smirking like some Edwardian schoolchild and show this proud lexical unit the respect that is it's due.

When i was knee-high to a grasshopper's genitalia my Uncle Baldylocks said, "Mindless, when a man can say Penis without sniggering he's showing true spunk."

Old Baldy instilled in me a lifelong passion for sensible phallic discourse. I dedicate this blog to my tonsured penile prophet.

I rose around 4 a.m. this morning. Although urination cured that problem sleep evaded me; I had a pretty important interview to attend and was all a-quiver with anticipation. I decided to kill a couple of hours on the forum, before I know it I...
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This isnt love

Posted 03-09-2015 at 06:43 by bebestunna
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So I've been wanting to write for a LONG time now, it all started shortly after my son was born things were great more than great they were awesome, not long after my bf began drinking he said he needed something if he couldn't smoke weed ( we had both couched to quit for our son ) as he began drinking it went to the extreme with plenty of times having to remove myself and my son out of the situation. So as I'm sitting here tonight memories rush through my veins I'm so clouded with hurt, pain and lots of emotions, yes I can't say drinking is bad because I used to like to drink. But with a new responsibility life changes you can't do those things in preportion or or words get a babysitter. Now I sit here my son almost 2, a lying bf, first it started with the vehicle because he hit a car..hit and run..cause of drinking..than just last December...
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somewhere to put this

Posted 01-09-2015 at 15:39 by cren
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I see you. I look at you and I see your physical presence. I see your diseased ravaged body and you trying to function. That is all. I dont see who you are anymore. I stopped looking.

I dismissed you as an adult the way you dismissed me as a child. I gave up trying to see you.

I couldnt tell anymore if what I found when I looked at you was really you or the result of your illness affecting your brain, anyway you have had it so long I cant even remember you being well.
I dont know what you would be like without your illness affecting your mind. I could of worked it out but I dismissed you.
It was easier that way.

Now you dont even know me and I dont know you.

You never knew me never cared to. Assumed you didnt need to know me. I guess you didnt. I was in your way.
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Posted 30-08-2015 at 17:29 by trippymindfuk

At this moment I feel a little better than I have in the past year or so. I have accepted that my life is in turmoil, and I know that things will get better one day. I have to see my probation officer in 2 days and if they piss me then I am going to jail.....I am only dirty for weed. They do not care what you fail for but it's not like I'm strung out on heroin or meth like the majority of people on probation/parole here. I am not even nervous about it. If it happens, it happens. It has taken me a long time to come to terms with things but it is what it is......my life would not be where it is if it weren't for the choices I have made. I forgive everyone that has done me wrong and also hope the people I've done wrong can forgive me. I have felt like I was crazy because I have gone through a lot of shit in the past few years and anyone I try...
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UK government response to legalization

Posted 26-08-2015 at 08:00 by Joe-(5-HTP)
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There was recently a petition of the UK government to legalize cannabis. See the DF thread on that here. Because the petition received so many signatures, they may debate it in parliament.

However for now the government released a text response outlining the reasons for their opposition to cannabis legalization. I thought I'd go through their responses and explain why I disagree with them.

I'll first say that I'm at least somewhat impressed at the quality of their arguments. Drug legalization is clearly becoming an issue they feel more time needs to be dedicated towards. I do regard all their arguments as misguided but nonetheless I recognise they are engaging with the subject with a little bit more rigour and seriousness than they have in the past. Which isn't saying much is it.

I will take...
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An extreme but accurate analogy

Posted 25-08-2015 at 06:08 by Joe-(5-HTP)
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Addicts of 'hard' drugs like heroin/meth/crack are often sufferers of abuse. Physical and sexual abuse leads to psychological trauma. When they use a drug, they feel comfort and satisfaction for perhaps even the first time in living memory. Also it finally allows their mind, albiet temporarily, escapism from the symptoms of their trauma.

Obviously this is a disastrous idea because addiction will only compound and exacerbate their issues in the long run, if it doesn't kill them. However, it's hard to see the validity in responding to this predicament by suggesting they should be incarcerated.

People like Peter Hitchens represent the view that drug addicts are not damaged vulnerable people but morally defective deserving of condemnation and incarceration. I do think we have the makings of a classic left (defend...
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the evolution of a man

Posted 15-08-2015 at 00:47 by Ophiuchus (The Frying Pan-Things Always Get Hot In Here!)

Yes, St Dismas Novitiate has undergone a drastic change, and has become Ophiuchus. A small and simple explanation can be found in the thread "what does your screen name mean....?"

But as a famous man once said "Change is not inevitable, it is essential. Why fear it or fight it, when you can embrace it and move forward?"

More to come.
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Mistaken, my middle name

Posted 14-08-2015 at 22:28 by lonewolfjasmine
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When I was 19 I thought I was was in love. His name was Michael. Fresh out of prison, covered in tattoos with eyes the color of a summer sky. I don't remember the first time he hit me but I remember the last time. This isn't the story of that last time however.
One particular memory of Michael and I replays itself often in my head. Mostly when I'm trying to sleep, sometimes when I'm alone and lonely. I stayed for 3 years and moved with him dozens of times between Kentucky and Indiana. When were always fighting and never seemed to have a place to securely lay our heads at night. When I told him how scared I was of him, how much he hurt me, how much I wanted to go home he would erupt in anger and threaten to kill my family. Knowing how much hatred he had in his heart I fully believed he would. I stopped asking to go home and just took...
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My Battle with Opiates

Posted 14-08-2015 at 19:00 by BeatOpiatesForGood
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My Story,
It all started with a broken back due to a Motocross accident in 2003, I been through 28 broken bones four surgery's before the broken back but never took Pain Meds for the Pain. I had to be on something for the broken back or I would never have gotten any sleep so the Doc gave me? of course! the all mighty Vicodin pills....UGH! Just saying it now makes me cringe. Any who From the Vicodin I slowly Graduated through the years from Vikes to Hydrocodone to Oxycodone to Oxycontin. 120Mg's of Oxycontin and 160Mg's of Oxycodone in 24 hour period is a hell of alot of Opiates!

This all took place from 2003 to March of this year 2015. How did I kick it?
I said to myself one day "How can such a small pill drive my life?" I was always protecting my pills so I wouldn't loose them, I was forced to put tasks...
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Posted 10-08-2015 at 16:12 by trippymindfuk

Sometimes I feel like I have lost this battle called life. The love of my life is not with me and I miss her so much. I worry like crazy about her everyday. I have let so many people down and I always hurt the people that I love and the people that care about me. I feel unloved quite often and I have a huge void in my life. I don't know what it is and I try to be happy but it is so hard sometimes. I am in a rut and have been for years now. I know that drugs are not the best way to fill that void, but at least they provide a temporary relief. I need love and affection, I miss my woman so much! I feel like it is my fault that she is in the position she is in. She is 2 states away, depressed, and living with a man she hates.....I have a deep regret for a lot of the mistakes I have made in life, only for the simple fact that they have affected...
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Posted 09-08-2015 at 09:46 by lonewolfjasmine

For as long as I can remember being alive, I've felt like a burden. Like I was not good enough. Like I didn't belong. I don't remember anyone ever saying that to me as a child or an adult. It's still a feeling I cannot shake. I try too hard with people and I bend over backwards. I give too many chances to those who don't deserve them. I go out of my way to make those around me feel good and comfortable and entertained. I put my needs on the back burner, always. I get walked on. I get let down. I get mistreated. For reasons unknown to me I feel like I deserve it. For the past few years I've been working on my heart. Making it stronger and making it colder. Making it hard. A soldier. My family has abandoned me. I gut it out with no real friends and every potential friend I meet is kept at an arms length. Is this reasonable on my part? No probably...
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Once Apon A Time

Posted 08-08-2015 at 18:50 by Ophiuchus (The Frying Pan-Things Always Get Hot In Here!)

"Strange how paranoia can link up with reality now and then."-Phillip K. Dick, A Scanner Darkly

Once upon a time, there was a nation of people who believed everything they were told by their government.

When terrorists attacked the country and the government officials claimed to have been caught by surprise, the people believed them. And when the government passed massive new laws aimed at locking down the nation and opening the door to total government surveillance, the people believed it was done merely to keep them safe. The few who disagreed were labeled traitors.

When the government wages costly preemptive wars on foreign countries, insisting it was necessary to protect the nation, the citizens believed them. And when the government brought the weapons and tactics of war home to use against...
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Posted 06-08-2015 at 21:11 by Ophiuchus (The Frying Pan-Things Always Get Hot In Here!)

"take out the trash" was a command my mother shouted at me as a kid. Today, I stuff as much of it down the garbage disposal as I can, hit the on switch for a few seconds, and it all goes down the drain. The rest I wrap in a Wal-Mart bag, put it in the can out back, and once a week a big truck magically appears and hauls it away.

Why take out the garbage? Well, it is not worth keeping, and I don't want it to rot, stink, and spoil. it is a pity we cannot do the same thing for our minds: take out the garbage, and for the same reasons.

mind garbage is any negative, nasty thought you need to take out of your mind. It is anything not worth keeping and anything that spoils everything else in your mind and your heart. There are many kinds of garbage that find there way into your mind, but lets talk about the three...
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Sensory Deprivation and Benzo Withdrawal

Posted 25-07-2015 at 04:12 by chupamivergaguey

Male, 30s, ~160lb. When I went in for my first float I was in bad shape. I had detoxed from alcohol and other drugs and was just beginning the detox for benzodiazepines. My latest run went on for about six months of almost daily use of a variety of benzos and other drugs. Although benzo doses did increase during this period, they didn’t increase beyond anything therapeutic and even at the end I was only taking around 2mg of flubromazalam at night. I know this is vague but I can’t really give better details of how much of what I had in my system for a variety of reasons. I can only give a general timeframe of more or less daily use.

Having detoxed from alprazolam before, I assumed I was in for a good 10-14 days of anxiety, fear, insomnia, and another symptom that can only be described as “feeling turned inside out,” one...
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My Journey and where I am NOW

Posted 08-07-2015 at 20:47 by Jake.
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I just thought i'd write a blog entry on my personal history, drug use, and how I got to where I am now.

I started drinking at 14, the age I came out as Gay. This was not the reason however.

From 17-24 my drinking got heavier and heavier and I was an alcoholic, drinking 3 bottles of wine a day or 1 litre of spirits. I hated life, hated myself, and quit.

I used other forums and support network and didnt drink a drop for 4 years.

When I was 16 and left High School my eyes were opened to the world of drugs. I've done;

Magic Mushrooms
Amyl Nitrate
You get the picture.......

I went to college, got a Bachelors Degree in Sociology...
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my pledge to play my part in preventing cyber bullying

Posted 30-06-2015 at 18:32 by detoxin momma

in this day and age,the kids have it much tougher than we did as kids.
cyberspace,how detrimental this can be on a developing personality.

these kids spend too much time online.social media especially.

in my home we allow no social media of any kind.we are a facebook,myspace,twitter,IG,or any other form out there,free home.

i am trying anyways.

i have an 11 year old daughter and a 9 year old son.
where theres a will theres a way.kids will find a way when they're determined enough.

i have caught my daughter on "KIK" against my wishes 3x now.this is a newer place for the kids to congregate.she lost her tablet for a month each time.and i set a pattern lock so that only i can open it now.

when the norm these days is to post and share...
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Spirituality's success in recovery from addiction, and why you dont need it.

Posted 25-06-2015 at 23:50 by Scloud90
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I was writing a thesis on addiction and spirituality, or more accurately described as a half thesis/half brainstorm on how spiritual awakenings aid in recovery, and what the connection is in recovery and spirituality. The main point of interest is how spirituality offers the restoration of things lost in addiction, as most of the changes that occur are strong tenants of many types of spirituality and religious belief. Relationships, hope, time, community, happiness, conviction and belief are all major components of most religions. All of which are robbed of you in most cases, and all of which are necessary for recovery. From the enriched environment and community that alters the regulation of FOSB like proteins which is related to addiction, to the belief that your recovery is possible, and to alter your perception so that something bigger...
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Posted 15-06-2015 at 13:23 by mr.M

I am such at the high end right now. I will probably sound weak and coward but I think I will relapse and sometimes I wanna relapse. I just want to stop feeling this fucking way.

I haven't used drugs as in abuse or for recreational purpouse in two years. Only codeine which I took once a week.

I've quitted 170mg of methadone exactly two years ago. Stimulants three years ago. I only took a reaseach chemical three weeks ago but was a small dose and it was more of a sedative slightly empathogenic than a stimulant. It wasn't like a real relapse because I didn't want it to do it the next day or any other day after.

I have used codeine and dihydrocodeine once a week.

If someone is reading this and dosen't suffer from OCD, Post Traumatic Stress Disorder and borderline personality disorder...
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