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Fight Club Memorable Quotes

Posted 07-01-2008 at 17:55 by Fight Club

You wake up at Seatac, SFO, LAX. You wake up at O'Hare, Dallas-Fort Worth, BWI. Pacific, mountain, central. Lose an hour, gain an hour. This is your life, and it's ending one minute at a time. You wake up at Air Harbor International. If you wake up at a different time, in a different place, could you wake up as a different person?

You know why they put oxygen masks on planes? Oxygen gets you high. In a catastrophic emergency, you're taking giant panicked breaths. Suddenly you become euphoric, docile. You accept your fate. It's all right here. Emergency water landing - 600 miles an hour. Blank faces, calm as Hindu cows.

On a long enough timeline, the survival rate for everyone drops to zero.

When people think you're dying, they really, really listen to you, instead of just . . . waiting for their...
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Rubberlips (part 2)

Posted 27-01-2008 at 02:11 by VincentVan

Only in her bed, among wild flowers and sharp slivers of colorful glass, became evident to me the reason why Nature choose sex as only instrument for life's evolution and betterment of the species; and why the gods always feared it and forbid it, while all demons, visionaries and rebels always used it to challenge them and to mock their power.
Only in her bed could I glimpse the might of Helen and the passion of Medea.
In her bed time would first freeze and then crumble into shiny fragments of past and future, that would finally fall, like april's rain on our sweaty, thirsting bodies.
There, in the temple of senses, space could not exist.
Matter transformed into novel sensations: juicy fruits of the games of our bodies; which, if squeezed, distilled elixirs of deep, deep pleasures.

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Rubberlips (part 3)

Posted 11-02-2008 at 20:40 by VincentVan

You see, Rubberlips was not like all the other lovers.
She was more like a virus.
She could work her way deep down to your soul; and then slowly begin to carve it and reshape it in her unmistakeable style, until you were left with a priceless masterpiece that all would admire and crave but which did'nt belong to you anymore.
She could gradually seep into your blood so that her taste would constantly be in your mouth; and once in there she would take possession of your heart and use it as a burning hot iron to brand her image in every cell of your brain.
But all this process just felt so good, so natural, so inherently perfect, that no one ever tried or even thought of fighting it.
Just like the chrysalis, scared as it might be, does not fight its becoming a buttefly.
The acorn does not fight...
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Sync Ups at WPF

Posted 26-03-2008 at 19:29 by moda00
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Lots of discussion and thoughts on syncronicity (sp?) and won't get into it all, but thought I'd share a few experiences..

Meeting some fellow DFers, chances to meet with and talk to Rick Doblin and many MAPS staff and volunteers, etc. worked in perfectly with what was needed, mind states and thoughts and energy begetting energy in a perfectly aligned journey forward, coming full circle..

At the airport, rounding out the journey, I ran into another WPF attendee, someone I didn't end up getting to meet at the conference, but the meeting occurred spontaneously at the airport instead.

I also found myself sitting next to a girl on the plane. I was a bit tired, and while I think I am not usually a very judgemental person, I was quite tired and sleep deprived, and figured I would just go to sleep and not interact.....
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Your Dreams

Posted 28-03-2008 at 13:34 by sweetsugar

It doesn't matter whether you're 14 or 114, you should never give up on your dreams.Too many people do so at the first sign of any setback. You've got to have the will and determination to go on, even in the face of adversity. I think it's just human nature that if you want something with all your very being then you're probably going to have the most horrendous time trying to get it.

I liken it to climbing Everest (not that I actually have you understand). Look at what those few people who make it to the top have to go through to get there; all of the unimaginable obstacles both mental and physical they have to overcome. But then, when they finally make it, after all the anguish and exhaustion, with just about nothing left in the tank except adrenaline alone, they suddenly take that final step and there they are, standing on...
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Alex and Allyson Grey's Psychedelic Families lecture

Posted 30-03-2008 at 06:54 by moda00

Alex and Allyson Grey's Psychedelic Families lecture
March 23, 2008 Congress Center of Basel, Switzerland

Idea of "Father Knows Best" ideal American family from early-mid 1900s
-Personal history- No discussion of drugs with parents, but often surrounded by alcohol, tobacco, legal/prescription drug use, although problem use is veiled or not discussed, it is in the background

Images- Ozzy and Harriet (ideal of mom/dad/teens, happy together) vs. Ozzy Osbourne and family- both are "together" families that have caring/loving but appear very different

Consistent mischaracterization of the marijuana issue often at the root of the drug education problem- exaggerates and conflicts with what many know through experiencing or observing its reality, or some simple research (more generally...
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Samadhi123's novella 'The Willow Orchard- Part 1 of 7'...

Posted 25-04-2008 at 06:52 by Samadhi

Pt. I
The Beginning of the End…It Walks Shadowed

Another moon…another birth brought enlightened and made clay to skin by the creators.

"Such plans I have for you" they spoke in phlegmatic understatement.

"If the memory goes unnamed forever you must remain. Shattered in the silence of this temple faced ruin…you seek… you hold the answers beneath those false eyes…Of ice I have created this home…scarred by the remains of the dead hopes that have left the pages of this book pockmarked with half-truths and tall tales…all have the key but few have the choice…I have chosen you…The barren seven remain uprooted and challenged in vain…you face the ultimate test…no debt will go unpaid" they spoke.

As the swan blossom dropped out of sight from
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A Short Poem about Drug Addiction . . .

Posted 02-06-2008 at 04:12 by beena (Pipe Dreams)

Her First Love (by Beena)

Baby, when will you learn,
That the crack you burn,
Only leads to pipe dreams
And nefarious schemes

Left-wing student utopia,
Became self-destruct dystopia,
Big city lights and a future so bright
Now lay in waste

First came the highs
Then came the cries
A ten pound deal
Preferred to a meal

Languid inanition
Replaced real ambition
Days spent chasing, living room pacing
After her first pipe

Forty pounds for a quarter,
A bottle of water,
Tinfoil and ash
Was her day to day stash

Intense cerebral stimulation,
No longer masked feelings of rejection
Day to day strife, made her reach for the knife,
Walls sprayed with claret...
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The Psychology of Hashish, by "Oliver Haddo"

Posted 19-06-2008 at 07:31 by enquirewithin
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This article was originally published inThe Equinox, Volume I, Number 2, September 1909 as by "Oliver Haddo' and is on line in many places including here.

Chapter I
“The girders of the soul, which give her breathing, are easy to be unloosed... Nature teaches us, and the oracles also affirm, that even the evil germs of matter may alike become useful and good.”
Comparable to the Alf Laylah wa Laylah itself, a very Tower of Babel, partaking alike of truth both gross and subtle inextricably interwoven with the most fantastic fable, is our view of the Herb — Hashish — the Herb Dangerous. Of the investigators who have pierced even for a moment the magic veil of its glamour ecstatic many have been appalled, many disappointed. Few have dared to crush in arms of steel this burning...
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life- update

Posted 21-07-2008 at 16:46 by moda00

Just wanted to update everyone on what is happening with me.. apologies for not having been around too much this summer, I am doing my best to help out here and there but have been unable to do as much as I would like.

I found out in mid-June that I am expecting. This will be my first child. The pregnancy was unplanned but is welcomed as a blessing and celebration of life. I consider it an honor to have the experience of helping to create a new life.

I have been very physically ill due to the pregnancy, and have had to be hospitalized a few times due to excessive vomiting and dehydration (hyperemesis gravidarum). I am on an anti-emetic (ondansetron, or Zofran) which has been helpful but doesn't solve the problem entirely.

I have also come off of the medications I was taking for my sleep disorder, including...
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Lip Service

Posted 26-07-2008 at 13:06 by Heretic.Ape.

Lip Service
(Or a Failed Attempt To Think of Something Other Than You)

The Scene does its best to impress: sunlight angles down
And to the left, just so, coaxing a neon moss colored glow
From the surface of the small lake resting like a green broken egg
Beneath a wreath of trees and grey rock outcropping;

The patch of sky exposed to my eyes is blue, then white,
Blue, then white, then blue again as the wind, like some furious djin,
Expands its chest, extends its breath, pushes the clouds fast
By the mountains patient head;

Huddled below at the humus feet of coniferous spires
(That set my mind whispering at the futile span of one life) tiny
Villages of mycotic albinos open white and mud colored umbrellas to...
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worlds worst buddhist

Posted 26-07-2008 at 13:29 by Heretic.Ape.

worlds worst buddhist

Eyes fixed but unfocused, a mantram pulsing through his head--weaving a vibrational flux to act like a pendulum of attraction on the electro-chemical waters of his brain; singing into being a scaffolding of dissociation.

Sinew and bone begin to melt into a quantum foam of probabilistic non locality.

Sounds of people talking and laughing are left to bleed into the sky, belonging no longer to the corrugated cartilage and tiny bones that catch and coax them into coherence.

Dimensionality begins to collapse, leaving the tapestry of sense and cognition--so enveloping and complete a moment before--seeming analogous to a spotted film of oil on the surface of an ocean.
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The In-Between

Posted 01-09-2008 at 00:58 by infekt

Just a little piece of writing I did..

There is no comfort in the in-between. We are awake before we can rest, and unfortunatley when we are born we have to live before we die. I suppose it makes things more interesting. It's 4:02 AM, and yes it's great to be back, wherever the hell I am. I always love being back, "here". Staring in to the bathroom mirror. This is the place where the realization hits me: no rest tonight. I have an exam tomorrow morning at 9. I have to urinate in a cup for the 47th district at 7:30 in the AM.

So I'll walk through this exhausting limbo in between wake and rest into the horizon, and find solace in my anxiety; the reflection in the river, the shadow I cast over the garden. Two different color schemes outlining the same issue. Both are my bathroom mirror, where I...
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A Short Poem about Paranoia ...

Posted 03-10-2008 at 13:04 by beena (Pipe Dreams)

Everybody is looking at me
But they think I am unaware
Everybody is talking about me
They have nothing nice to say

I chew my nails and pull my hair
I fidget uncomfortably in my chair
I am the centre of this room
All eyes are fixed on me

I am being studied and analysed
My every move is noted down
By cold disapproving minds
That penetrate into my head

They pry into my private thoughts
And listen to my secrets
And later when I am not there
They will laugh at me.
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MEDIA OWNERSHIP AND BIAS France: his master’s voice pt2

Posted 10-10-2008 at 12:33 by Benga

That the communications giants would find “freedom of the press” to be such an obliging concept does not disturb Reporters sans frontières (RSF, Reporters without borders). RSF’s secretary general, Robert Ménard, offers this concession: “In order to defend journalists throughout the world, we require the consent and support of the profession, whereas discussions concerning the journalistic profession are by definition contentious. For instance, how can we organise a discussion on the increasing concentration of the media and then ask Havas or Hachette to sponsor an event?” (10). Since defending journalists in China or Chechnya also means dealing with Hachette and Havas (not to mention Silvio Berslusconi, Rupert Murdoch and Francis Bouygues), is it surprising that among the “predators of freedom of the press” named by RSF - and pilloried last...
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Isreal Regardie--Roll Away the Stone: An Introduction to Aleister Crowley' on Hashish

Posted 13-10-2008 at 15:00 by enquirewithin

Roll Away the Stone: An Introduction to Aleister Crowley's Essays on the Psychology of Hashish with the complete text of The Herb Dangerous [by] Aleister Crowley Regardie, Israel (1968)

Roll Away the Stone
by Israel Regardie

The purpose of the hashish-session was simply to provide the student with a fore-taste or some adumbration of the mystical experience towards which he was focusing all his energies. It was never the intention of Crowley at any time to use drugs as a substitute for the body-mind discipline which he insisted on beyond all other things. This was the furthest notion from his mind. ...

I want to emphasize unequivocally that Crowley has asserted not once but a thousand times that the discipline itself was far more important than any one particular result or attainment. His thesis
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Heroin will be the death of me

Posted 21-10-2008 at 18:13 by msmogadon

I want to talk to you about one of the deadliest killers in the world today. I had a dream the other night. I was sitting in my living room, dosed off to sleep and so I started dreaming........
I dreamed I walked in a place and saw a real strange, weird object standing up talking to people. I found that it was heroin that deadly drug that go in your veins. He said..................
"I came to this country without a passport. ever since then I've been hunted and sought. My little white grains are nothing but waste. Sordid deadly and bitter to taste.
Well I'm a world power and although its true
Try me once and you'll know it too.
I can make a mere schoolboy forget his books
I can make a world famous beauty neglect her looks.
I can make a good man forsake his wife
Send a greedy man to prision...
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Case Study: Salvia Divinorum and Bipolar Disorder

Posted 18-11-2008 at 22:51 by Heretic.Ape.
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1.0 Introduction
My monkey has noticed a remission of bipolar symptoms since beginning experimentation with salvia around two weeks ago. This blog will be a log of his observations to determine whether the plant is responsible for this remission, contemplations on the potential reasons for such an effect, and general thoughts on the matter.

2.0 Case History.
Subject began showing symptoms at around the age of 16 with mood swings, grandiose thinking, and other typical bipolar trademarks. The disorder reached it's fruition when subject was 22 years old. He had a complete breakdown, which he does not remember very well. He came to believe that he was the devil and that he had come to earth to set mankind free from the shackles of the false God and to redeem Truth by a pure form of heresy. If this does not make sense,...
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Posted 27-11-2008 at 20:06 by old hippie 56

Ah, the start of the holiday season. My worst time of the year.
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White collar work sucks

Posted 04-12-2008 at 01:13 by Heretic.Ape.

Work in general tends to be lame. Most of the work I have done in my life has been stuff along the lines of dishwashing, working at gas stations and assorted menial jobs. While I didn't necessarily enjoy these, I never really had a huge problem unless I hated my co-workers... in which case I would quit.
My latest job is working in filing at a law firm. It seemed like a step up: it sounds more respectable and for the most part I don't mop up a bunch of shit. However there is one thing that sets this work way back: time draaaaaags on foreeeeeeever. I sit in front of a computer (something I normally enjoy, when at home with my feet propped up in comfy clothes and my cat on my lap and a glass of wine at hand) and do tedious repetative tasks all day. It's a decent job but it is hell.
I find that I miss doing more physical repetative...
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stories from a "gulag" school

Posted 30-04-2009 at 18:13 by Ilsa
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the following is the story of one of the girls i went to school with at mountain park baptist boarding school and academy. don't let the name fool you: these people were masters of insidious abuse and had no qualms about keeping almost 200 girls from ages 12 to 17 on thorazine to maintain control of an understaffed "school" that was really just a money-making scheme, as in, tuition checks were made as donations to the churchand therefore non-taxable. they have been run out of mississippi, louisiana, missourri and florida on child abuse allegations. anyway, here is becky's story:

I don't remember much, having blocked a lot out and from the effects of the thorazine, but here's what i do remember:

I left for Mountain Park on August 25, 1995. My parents and I were driving from Florida, and it took...
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Posted 07-07-2009 at 22:32 by AceOvArts
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Good evening my friend Insomnia,
These meetings become more regular
How I wish you would show me your seductive ways,
But instead you bring me the darkest of days.
And tonight while we talk you'll promise so much,
You will sprinkle my mind with a magic touch,
And just as I taste the forbidden fruits,
A dawn chorus orchestra start playing their flutes,
So I will lay down once more and close my eyes tight,
Hoping to grasp whats left of the night,
And float on a dream that feels light as a feather,
To liven my body and soul more than ever,
But deep in the darkest part of my mind,
I feel her lurking to again be unkind,
Will she ever forget me and just go away,
So for once I can wake up refreshed for the day ?
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Music Of Thelema (Moscow OTO)

Posted 20-10-2009 at 08:21 by enquirewithin

Music Of Thelema

Music by Valentin Dubovskoy, ordered by Moscow Oasis of OTO.

Ever wondered what the Crowley's poems, invocations and rituals might sound like set to Russian music? No-- nor me! But you can download MP3s here:


1. Credo (from the Gnostic Mess)
2. Hymn (from the Gnostic Mess)
3. One star in sight
4. Hymn to Pan
5. Invocation of Hecate
6. Nekam, Adonai!
7. Lift up this love
8. The Interpreter
9. Pan to Artemis
10. Stele of Revelation (AL III:37-38)

Choir of Thelemites from the Moscow Lodge of OTO «Pan's Asylum»

Natalya Skryabina, vocal (3, 4-10)
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More Thelemic Music: AL - 100th Anniversary

Posted 30-10-2009 at 01:27 by enquirewithin
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Soon after finding music from the Russian OTO, this comes my way:

AL - 100th Anniversary: Compilation of an exclusive and unreleased tracks dedicated to Aiwass & New Aeon & The Book Of The Law technically called Liber AL vel Legis sub figura CCXX as delivered by XCIII = 418 to DCLXVI that was dictated in Cairo on April 8th-10th in the year 1904.

This is a surprisingly good collection of modern music dedicated to Liber Al and Crowley in general. What is intersting is that Crowley's words are used here. These days it is relatively easy to produce good quality music inexpensively. One of the highlights of the collection is a new track by Genesis P-Orridge-- one of hir better tracks too.

As for the rest, I'll quote from Lashtal, a Crowley web site:

This limited edition album –
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Experimental Parsnip wine recipe

Posted 15-04-2010 at 04:29 by Potter

5 pounds, 5 ounces of year old parsnip (just removed from ground),
2 gallons of water
1.5 inches ginger
c cloves
12 green cardamon
20 allspice

Scrub parsnips clean, cut into large chunks. Cook for a while, stop before the parsnip falls apart. Cover and let sit over night. In the morning strain and take hydrometer reading.

I'll post the rest of this in the morning.
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