had one of the craziest trips yesterday that Swim has ever had!
Swim couldn't figure out why it was so much crazier than the other trips that Swim's had in the past because he didn't even take a full eighth this time around!! And he's had WAY bigger dose trips in the past.
Swim really wasn't ready for it, but at the same time it was VERY eye opening and meaningful. And today the afterglows one of the best one's that Swim's ever been left with to boot!
Swim's not going to go into to much detail about the events that happened throughout the trip but man, there was tons of non-ego'd spirtually, intense conversations with another fellow travellor who was tripping with him. And later some other people that they met up with as well.. Tons of venting to, which afterwards made Swim feel so much better about stuff in general.. And even a little bit of crying to complete the venting process of all the shit that Swim's been going through in his life(which is another story).. But at the same time it felt awesome for Swim, and the hallucinations were out of this world!
At one point Swim actually thought he had died and went to heaven with the fellow tripper and friends that were around at the time. He actually thought everything was all over and it really made swims mind feel like all of the shit that's been happening was done with/completed.. Every shitty thing in life didn't matter anymore to Swim.
Swim would say the closest comparrison to the feeling it left him is in a way the same that Opiates
used to make Swim feel back in the day when he still used them. Swim was left in a space of nothingness but wasn't even on any opiates! Swim felt the togetherness of him before all the problems took hold.
In fact Swim was getting so comfortable around these people that for some reason Swim thought that he had to take of his clothes(Adam and Eve crossed his mind at the time), and he eventually started to take off his socks and than his shirt. When it got to the pants Swim felt pretty pissed that he had to take off his pants in front of all these people but luckily didn't have to!.. He suddenyl realized that he wasn't dead and they actually do still need clothes :P. Plus he realized that these people are gonna freak the fuck out if Swim takes off any more clothing! So Swim quickly put his clothing back on and continued with the trip.. At the time it was very embarissing for Swim.
Swim felt like Swim was getting super warm as well, kinda like an opiate
used to make him feel. So that was another part that contibuted to Swim thinking everyone was suposed to roam around naked and free.
Don't ask, it was really messed up. And Swim had to laugh about it a little this morning.
It was almost a feeling that he had when he was still a child with no worries or cares really. And it made swim realize how much easier swim has to try and be on himself in life. These problems are chewing Swim up inside already, and Swim realized he doesn't have to be even harder on himself about them and make things even worse than they already are. Especially with Swim being a recovering Opiate addict.. Swim's been making himself even more stressed than he has to be and stress is never a good thing.
All in all, Swim's happy it happened but Swim doesn't feel a desire to repeat the same accidental combination again(if that is what cause such intensity). It was intense enough, and if Swim wasn't already a very experienced tripper he would have freaked the **** out.
Nehow, it finally hit Swim what made it so crazy compared to all his other previous trips..
The night before, Swim was out of his usual sleeping pills(Melatonin), so Swims mom gave him a small dose of Quetiapine. It's good for sleeping at low doses and Swim had some left over from when a Doctor tried putting him on them after a breakdown. Eventually though, Swim realized he would be better off without them and really didn't need the medication so he quit it cold-turkey and hasn't looked back since. Things have been A LOT better without the medication as well.. It was such a waste of money, and Swim thinks that's one of the reasons the doctor was trying to keep Swim on it to.
Swim really thinks this mite have been what made such a big difference in the intensity of the trip.
It was making Swim think of the way an MAOI
is said to make a mushroom trip or LSD
trip a couple times stronger than it usually is. Or how it's used in Ayahuasca
to make it work how it does and let the DMT
take the right effect for a long amount of time.
Swim's not gauranteeing that this was why it was so intense, but Swim thinks this might have had something to do with it. Afterall no other trips have ever been like that one and Swim didn't even take that much Mushrooms!
The trip kinda reminded Swim of the time he smoked DMT. That's how damn intense it was at points. Especially in the beginning.. It was weird because Swim was tripping mass balls in less than an hour! It was a way faster come-up than it usually is, and it seemed to last forever to!
Caution: Swim would not recomend this combo to anyone who's not experienced at tripping.
Swim did benefit from it in his own kinda weird enlightening way, but it was verry intense.
Swim thinks one shouldn't attempt unless they are very sure they know what they're doing and are very experienced at tripping already. *Use caution just in case it was the Quetiapine.
If Swim would have tripped this one alone like he usually does with his Mushrooms, Swim doesn't think he would have been able to handle it at all.
It was a bonding experience, and Swim was also extremely empathetic like Swim would become on MDMA
And to clarify, Swim's not saying this combo will make you cry or fuck with your emotions either. It may have for Swim at points, but everyone reacts with stuff differently.
Swim had some issues that he had to deal with from before that were stuck inside him for a while. The spiritual adventure of a trip really helped let everything out.
Swim can't imagine how it would be if the two were takin at the exact same time. Swim would suspect if one were to take a high enough dose of Quetiapine you'd probably pass right out within the hour and snooze right through your trip. Who knows, you might even have a crazier trip in your dreams.
When Swim used to take it to help him sleep during his opiate withdrawals it usually would pass him right out, even through that!(If enough is taken and it's taken at the right time that is). It also passes a person out through Marijuana
withdrawals(insomnia). It is a lot stronger than any sleeping pill that you can buy OTC. And there's been times where Swim has felt like if he fell alseep on it he wouldn't wake up again because of how deep of a state in can put you in. Especially if you take to much.
Please be safe and use caution, just in case this is what made Swim trip so hard.