Basically, I am looking for legit advice. 5 years ago, I became addicted to valium
for about a year and a half. It started out as self medicating, in conjunction with smoking absurd amounts of weed
. It started out from 20mgs a day, and at the peak of it about 200mgs a day. I would also go on sppradi, binges, some being as high as 600mgs, which landed me in a psych qard because they thought it was attempted suicide
. Ive always had bad anxiety regardless. Either way, I quit cold turkey
, then stopped smioking weed cold turkey because I would get too paranoid. In the past 4 years ive used valium 6 times recreationally, and a handful of times for panic attacks, as well as one minor relapse. My concerns are: I dont feel as intelligent as I usedto. My memory is shot. I barely remember being 16. The withdrawal
was pretty awful. I still get urges and cravings to this day, but choose not to act on them. Do the.urges ever go away? What about my memory? I know I have some sort of decreased brain function from all of this. Is there anything I can do? Advice is greatly apprecuared.