Re: 17 days off high doses of oxycodone and heroin
First of all, let me tell you that you are doing great!!! 17 days? Wow! Not many people can do what you have done so give yourself SOME credit.
As for your home, car, license, job, etc., those all mean nothing. Coincidentally I just lost all of those myself and I am completely clean and I don't believe I deserved any of it. But those are the cards that were dealt to us. I don't hold it above my head and beat myself up for it. It's life. Take things one day at a time. Don't go too fast, trying to get a job, new house, etc., because you are only going to overwhelm yourself to the point of replapse. Just take it easy for now and when you start to feel better, THEN start getting your life back on track. You may have screwed over some good people who didn't deserve it, but if they are truly good people like you said, then an apology is never overdue. You can do all of that when you feel better. Your mind and body are much more important than any of these external possesions.
You have come this far and with the doseages that you listed above, I have a ton of respect for you for making it this long. If you have the will-power to go this long, then you have the power to do anything that you put your mind to once you are fully recovered. But please just take it easy for now and quit beating yourself up. You're doing great!