No, remember me the honest part that says he's not an addict
Well, I have 8 herniated discs and 5 that feel literally like i have physical objects in my back it hurts so bad. I wonder if I should post this back in the introductions forum because this would have been so much better than what I wrote. You guys all know how the story goes and you all know how it ends. If you *DO NOT* know then go get more pain medicine than you should, take a safe amount more than you should and then you'll understand why the rest of us are here trying to figure out our dual-identity and I don't mean a gender crisis.
So mine goes like this:
5 Herniated discs in 1992 (nothing for pain, I was active duty at the time and I gutted it out).
2 years later I was all betta (I was in better shape Matthew Phelps and I'm not making that up.)
In 2007 I did something I don't fully understand but my QL (quadratus lumborum spasmed so badly that it pulls ribs out). My pain was unreal.
I started on 2 Oxycododone 10/325 every 4 hours plus 1 soma every six and it barely took off the edges. For a month I crawled around my house.
From 2007 to abou 2008 the Oxycodone
worked but I started needing more and I had a merciful PA who let me have 500 a month and she didn't ask. She knew. We just did blood work every 3 months and I told her I'd drink 3 liters of water a day and I did.
Well none of that worked after a while it just ... stopped.
So we tried Avinza. (ER Morphine
) Holy crap that was a tic-tac. I think I get better pain control from breath mints.
So then we tried IR Morphine well that was better, it was like 2 tic-tacs.
Eventually I got to Methadone
. Got up to 120mg a day. Loved it but after 3 years even that was feeling a bit like aspirin.
I would also like to mention that if it's a prescription pain killer then I've had it. Oh and Fentanyl
gets the 3 tic-tac award. That stuff is the most expensive crap I have ever rubbed on pain.
So a friend of mine gave me 4 8mg Suboxone
. When it comes to pain that stuff is like *NO PAIN* for me. Take it and my pain dissolves almost as fast. Love it.
So I volunteered to go into Suboxone treatment (I know, I sound like an idiot don't I?) but at 2mg I feel better than when at 60mg of morphine. I cannot wait until tomorrow when I start the 8's. I'm going to be one happy little dude.
I do have to be honest. I'm in so much pain I could care less about the euphoria
if my pain would go away.
I wish it was legal to hunt pain and exterminate it. I'd be a member of a "Pain Death Squad".