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Note: this experience was conducted while already experiencing some minor gastrointestinal discomfort prior to the experience so nausea and vomitting may or may not be contributed to this combo.
Height: about 5 feet 8 inches (not really sure though.)
weight: about 125lbs
mindset: not much on afoafs mind, he was clear headed and no other drugs where taken exept the two aformentioned drugs, he did not have a sitter although this is not advised as things could have easily gotten out of hand if he was able to move during the later stages of the experience
This will be afoafs last time ever touching PCP, although he may do amanita muscaria again. the experience begins one quiet night with nothing to do, so it was decided he was going to mix two of the most interesting, alluring, and mysterious drugs he has in his possession, amanita muscaria and PCP. he puts the amanitas in a blender and grinds two large caps down to a nasty drinkable mushroom pulp. he downs this concoction and waits until he starts feeling the usual onset of tiredness he gets when the trip starts to take hold.
the first sign he notices that he is impared is about an hour and a half after ingestion he feels slightly off balance and a tad bit nauseated, he is also rather gaseous but he was before the experience to so he doesent know if its relevent. he laces up a cigarrette with "wet" (presumably PCP but could possibly be some sort of analog.) he steps outside and goes on a walk to smoke it, about half way through the sherm stick he feels his vision start to narrow the way he usually does, he keeps puffing away and he feels more removed from his body every time he puffs, he notices right away this is more intense than usual as he has done PCP alone about 10 times now and it never was this intense this fast, it usually takes a little bit to creep up on him. he kept walking and walking but he doesent know where he is going, he apperently lost the sherm stick somewhere but doesent know if he finished it.
it doesent matter which way he goes he just cant for the life of him find out how to get back home, the way he walks resembles a person on a high dose of DXM, it was very similar to the robo-walk. he is so confused and his vision is just full of black dots, they would move around and occasionally manifest into small shadow grimlin looking things in the corner of his vision, he kept hearing this jackhammer sound get constantly louder, but there where no workers out, its about 9 in the evening by this time, it keeps getting louder and louder to the point where that is all afoaf can hear.
he finally walks by his house and it took him a minute to realize that it was indeed his house, the second he gets inside he hurls right there in the hallway, a big pile of vomit covers the floor, his dog soon licks it up and goes on its merry way, his dog looked very different than normal he had almost an evil smile on his face and afoad kept thinking he heard his dog laughing. he picked up a newspaper but he couldent for the life of him read it, all the words didnt make sense and some of the letters where replaced with strange symbols, afoaf has experienced this on amanitas alone before. he was still hearing the noise though not as loudly as before.
he stumbled to his bed and lied down and closed his eyes, what he experienced next was the most amazing thing he ever saw. anyone familiar with audio engineering should know what a patch bay is. he saw a patch bay in front of him, he was able to "patch in" to different processes in his mind, just like he could patch in an effects processor in the studio. he could take a metaphorical cord and patch himself into different memories and thought processes just by putting it in the different holes on the console he was seeing with his eyes closed. one of the "cables" he thought he had in his hand was really strange looking it had a cross on the end of it and he plugged it in and a warmth overcame him like nothing he has ever experienced, pure euphoria, plain and simple oneness with everything, inconcievable, beautiful, he just threw his arms up and left his body. for a moment he was sheer nothingness, there was no pain, no anguish, no fear, no emotion, nothing, absolute bliss. there is no way to discribe any of these sensations as they where so beyond words, his senses where all intertwined, he could see with every oraface, every pore in his skin could see, he could hear everything, everything ever said to anybody, he was the collective conciousness, he was god, he was immortal, he was pure energy. it then became too much and he felt like he was on fire, he was burning from the inside out, he was scratching his skin just wanting out. this was looping over and over where he would think he was in deep nothingness, the void, and then he would start burning and he would claw at his skin. the whole time this was going on he was hearing a pounding in his head, it was so god damn loud it was unbearable, getting constantly louder until just stopping.
it felt like he spent so damn long in this loop, first nothingness, then understanding, then pain, then it would repeat, he is pretty sure this was the effect of the amanitas but the dissociation of the PCP intensified it so damn much it felt like forever. afoaf just wishes he could discribe it, its just sooooo beyond words there is no was possible to discribe the feeling, its just uurrrrgggg, he wishes someone could understand this, but he knows there is no way anyone who hasnt felt this could. the emptyness he felt was so great, the void of complete nothingness, it was as if his brain was the only thing in the world that was "powered" the only thing that was emitting energy. then he would just dissolve into this state of complete understanding and connectedness while simultaniously experiencing nothingness, his mind was experiencing two completly different states at once during one point in the loop as it was a gradual shift between states with a little bit of a "crossfade" between them. nothing makes sense now, its as if this experience has shattered any idea of self that he once held on to, complete ego loss, he feels so empty, yet at the same time so alive, how is this fucking possible.
the next thing he knew when he regained conciousness after experiencing this thought loop where he just kept thinking he was nothing, infinity, ect. he was in his bed, vomit was everywhere, he was shaking violantly, he didnt get to sleep for a few more hours but when he finally did he had very strange dreams which he didnt really remember expept for the fact that they where strange, he awoke the next day with claw marks all over himself where he tried to claw his way out of his skin. just the smell of PCP now makes him sick. he was in heaven for a few minutes and then in hell for a few minutes and that would loop over and over, this was the most intense experience of his life and although it was extremely interesting, awestriking, and beatiful, it was also dark, dreary, and evil at so many levels, he wouldent like to repeat it for a while but it wasnt a completly bad trip, it was just utterly alien. he still hasnt fully been able to integrate this experience although it hasnt been that long sense the experience.
Last edited by phenythylamine; 06-11-2010 at 22:10.
Re: Taming the fire within (a pcp and amanita muscaria trip report.)
yes the amanitas where fully dried so as to convert ibotenic acid to muscimol, swim never eats fresh amanitas as he has heard the body load is terrible. swim is going to be doing some more experiments with amanita muscaria combinations and will post reports when concluded, do you guys know of anything that amanitas definatly should not be combined with. this was a very uncomfortable experience but afoaf is sure glad he did it as he feels it was his most amazing experience yet.
and to samantha rabbit, I wouldent say that lol, some idiot gave me a negative reputation once for saying that once saying it is reputation trading even though I was just trying to give a verbal thumbs up because it wouldent let me rep the person again, really need to do away with this not letting you rep someone twice in a row feature, if the posts warrent reputation then it shouldent matter how many times you rep that person as long as it is deserved.