My best friends' girlfriend has been a regular user of MDMA
in the past few months, using 2 or 3 times a week most
weeks, and on the days between finds herself using mephedrone
. The really sober days she has are at work
but she works in a bar and finds it difficult to stay sober whilst there is a lot of alcohol
around, and often steals
shots and other drinks from behind the bar. She knows this is bad but seems to completely change
her perception of right and wrong when she is around alcohol. She was drinking heavily almost every day in the months
that led up to her bombing MDMA for the first time.
She told me that this all happened when she was at her boyfriends' house. She can't remember why or when this happened,
but it was a few months ago and it was just after the summer weather had turned much colder (All of us live in England, so it's
Two of her friends are dealers, although she won't say who, and regularly make money from selling their close friends
MDMA and mephedrone. She bought a gram of MDMA from them, and went to her boyfriends' place.
Her boyfriends' parents were asleep so they went to his room and started making MDMA bombs. She took the first one
after feeling anxiety, and started to feel the effects almost instantly. She tells me she looked at her boyfriend
and he began looking at her and giving her an unsure look as if to say ''You're faking it'' or ''How on earth have
you started to feel like that so quickly?'' But then saw her dinner plate pupils about 30 seconds after and was
really confused. She put it down to the fact that she'd used on an empty stomach, he thought it was because the rizla
had split on the way down. Turns out it was probably both.
The effects seemed to calm pretty quickly so she started eating some MDMA. Then she took another, bigger bomb which made her roll. Her eyes flickered, she
noticed the colour pink on her pajamas standing out more and couldn't focus on her boyfriends face, it kept becoming
a blur. She experienced a mild panic and kept a face as though she was very unsettled/uncomfortable. Her boyfriend
reassured her as it was her first time doing this much. She had a cigarette and started getting a sensation of pure
bliss about 2 pulls in.
Her teeth started chattering uncontrollably as if the room was freezing cold. The window was open and her boyfriend
thought she was cold and put a jumper on her and pulled the duvet over her. She then began feeling nauseous. She sat
up and started gagging violently, her stomach was going crazy. All she could do was ask for a bucket as she knew she
was going to be sick. He got her a bucket and she was sick. A lot. Once she had been sick, everything was beautiful
again. They both thought they should try and get some sleep.
Things got more strange and she started taking pictures of herself. She looked horrible. She even knew that when she
was rolling. The walls began to appear covered in childrens' writing in chubby coloured marker pens, yellows, reds,
blues, and greens. They turned the light off and tried to go to sleep.
Then she saw a dark shadow of what looked like a woman, smiling at her to her right. This didn't scare her although
remembering it in the morning was a little unsettling and made her uneasy. The same thing happened when she looked to
the other side, but there was an old, hag-like man, in a black hood, smiling and waving at her. This made her
realise that she was just tripping out and so she began to relax. Even though in a sober state, this would have
been most terrifying for her as she is scared of the dark.
She asked me if she had taken too much, or if anything was mixed with it. She didn't have a testing kit and is still
unsure if pure/almost pure MDMA can make you trip like that. She is now toning down how frequently she is using drugs
such as MDMA and going to try and use once a month AT THE MOST, although she understands that this is still very frequent.