Here's my story:
My first time using spice
, I just got a great high that wore off pretty quick. My second time using spice, (a few months later) at a party, I took probably over 80 hits. Suddenly I had no control over anything I was doing or saying. My body was doing things completely different than what my brain was telling it to. I started pushing through people, wandering the house. Every sound scared the shit out of me. The music seemed so loud and the people's voices sounded like they were yelling in my ears. It was so scary, I began to cry. People were laughing at me. So (still having no control over myself) I started to cuss them out and push and punch them.
A few moments later I walked out back and blacked out and fell on the ground. My eyes were wide open but I couldn't see a thing. Everyone was trying to get my attention but I had no idea where they were. They began dumping water on me, but that did nothing. I just sat there on the ground crying my eyes out.
Once my vision started to come back, I was still just as scared. I came to the conclusion that I was dying. I told everyone not to call an ambulance or anything because I didn't want my family to find out what I had been doing. I was so scared and since I was sure I was going to die I wanted to get it over with. I jumped in the pool trying to drown myself. Soon after, others jumped in to get me out. The rest of the night was a blur. But that bad trip
still haunts me til this day. I swore I'd never smoke spice again.
About 9 months later I was at another party. We we all really drunk, and my friend talked me into doing spice again. Being aware of the previous trips I had from spice, I only took two hits. Soon after I had the exact same trip as I had the last time. (Losing control and assuming that I'm dying)
It's been about 3 months since then now. And ever since that night, when I try and fall asleep I drift into a really bad trip. It's like I'm in a nightmare that seems incredibly real, and then it starts to mellow out some and I realize I'm having a bad trip. I try to get up and I lose control again only this time I can't move anything. I can't even lift my hand up. I'm just laying there in a panic, not being able to move. Once I finally come out of this trip I'm very dizzy, out of breath and paranoid for the following 20 minutes. This happens almost every night. It's so scary.
Has anyone else had these effects? With spice, or any other drug
? I'm wondering if the spice may have been laced with something. I don't know what to do! Sorry for writing so much, just needed to make sure I didn't leave out any details that may be needed.