Hi everyone, Hope you are all improoving ?
Thanks JD and Lostly and Rockbear and anybody who I have missed.
I hope you 3 are slowly getting better because lets not forget it is slow. Just one foot in front of the other. I am amazed at both Lostly and JD you are both so strong dealing with what you have to do with work and families. Keep going it does get better.
I have started to yoyo.
This is a good sign. I wanted to comit suicide earlier but after the tip of my life from JD "Legs up the wall" and some hot showers, I again felt so much better. Still sweating buckets under the arms and crying lots which is totally normal. I watched a film and then went for a walk. I,m not eating very well, just fruit, OJ and water today but I,m going to cook some fish later.
I know that sleep is going to be very difficult but it wont kill me and when my body wants to it will.
I,m over the worst but I know the power of addiction. It is very cunning. it will hit me when I least expect it.
Take care everyone. Sleep well and talk soon