Yea it is JD. Thanks. I really appreciate your help. I have bad insomnia tonight and its causing me anxiety and I hate it. So I,ll do LUTW now. Its 04.17 here.
What a fuck up.
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Hi werecat how are you ?
I burnt the box of codeine and I wish I hadnt cos i,m in a bad place right now and I want out.
I can be scroooge lol
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I NEED HELP PLEASE. I HAVE GOT MY TAPER WRONG.
Good morning everybody hope you are all progressing well ?
I had the worst or one of the worst nights of my life last night. I will try my hardest to explain properly.
I have a book that I write in. Like a diary of what I have taken and when. I,ve used this for my Dihydracodeine taper. Its very difficult to read and understand it. I was doing very well until last night when all of a sudden I had bad withdrawl. I couldnt understand it. Nothing would stop me from feeling very poorly. The hot showers, the legs against the wall, nothing would work to ease my pain. I didnt know what to do, but worked out I had to get some codeine inside me from the chemist this morning.
I made an appointment to see the doc. Before hand
I went to 2 chemists and bought nurofen plus ibuprofen with 12.8 mg of codeine phosphate and co-codomol 8mg codeine. I took 3 of the first and 2 of the 2nd. I was very scared as I dont know about the paracetamol and the ibuprofen. That means 54.4 mg codeine phos. Got me ?
I was shaking all over the place but feel fine now.
I then lied to the doc in some ways. Yes my back is bad. But I bigged it up which makes me a liar and I dont like liars. Please forgive me.
He gave me 56 x 15mg codeine phos and 30 mg Diazepam and some paracetomol. I told him I also had bad shits which is true as I went 3/4 times between 5 and 8 am.
Now I could be wrong but I can see entries in the diary for valium and have not included this in my taper.
Why else would this withdrawl kick in ? Some days 30 or 20 or 10 or nil ! I dont know. My freind says diazepam withdrawl kicks in after a few days for him.
I hope this makes sense. What should I do now. I am stable. I am worried. The anxiety was unbearable.
I need to find my stable limit and then stay there for a day or 2 and try again. God I hope this makes sense. I have had several heroin/opium/methadone withdrawls in my life time. This felt different.
Please what do you think ? Its the most scared I have ever been. Thankyou for reading this. Any advice would be greatfully recieved.
God bless Mono
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PS. I have never had valium withdrawl before just opiates.