Hi everyone, Just keep going.
JD. Thanks for your continued support mate. Nice one. How are you doing ? I,m finding hard to support others at the moment. Your new drug sounds good. I mean from the doc. If it works then great. Keep going my friend.
Had a ruff night.............................My anxiety is back with avengence. Oh dear. I had it the night before last but did manage to drift off in the end on both nights so I have slept twice. I felt anxious when I awake just now but have calmed down abit now. I hate the anxiety as much as the withdrawl. I had before when I tried to quit but not this early on.
If I get it during the day I can exercise it out I think.
Last night I got into bed fine. I was quite relaxed untill some fuck heads car alarm went off. You bastard I feel like I should have found it and smashed fuck out of it. Sorry to sound so aggressive as I hit the key pad pretty dam hard. it was only just audiable aswell but I,m seem sensative to noise at the mo.
Withdrawl wise I seem to be Ok. Its tempting to take some Codeine now but I will dose the same time as yesterday I think. I,ll write more later just needed to get that out lol.
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Now I find I could face prosecution from the social security, Its fraud. I have rung a charity that I have used before but their services have changed and I dont know if they can help me yet. I think they can. I have everything crossed. I dont want to end up going to court. All this will just lead to more anxiety and drug dependance. I have still stuck to my small dose of codeine. This has now all become worse.
I filed a false tax return because I have no records of when I worked and what money I earnt. Its better I come clean with this situation otherwise the worry will cause me more anxiety which could result in me taking more drugs and I dont want that.
I couldnt face the chiropractor. I cancelled. I would have just been a shaking wreck in the practice.
I just want to be clean and try somehow rebuild my life. Try and rebuild my relationship with my two daughters.
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downloaded yoga as medicine for my anxiety. good results. thanks jd, good tip. just 64 mins and i can dose. back bad. take it easy everyone