35 years of drug taking - Part 18

By supermono · Dec 12, 2014 · ·
  1. Hi everyone,

    Hi lostly, thanks for your support. How are you doing ? I must catch up with your thread. As for me I will be down to 80 mg codeine phosphate today. Down from 450 plus other shit. I only get slight withdrawls but its enough. My hands are shaking this morning and I,m a bit cold. I only take a very small amount of valium as and when needed.
    E G if my anxiety can not be got rid of by yoga breathing exercises or exercise or distraction. I didnt take any yesterday and had a really good day. My best day so far in this process. Iceni have agreed to give me some councilling and accupuncture for free as I,m not earning any dosh. I just live off the bank at the mo.
    I had a dream last night. I went into a shop but not sure why. It started to rain outside so I asked for a hat. It was a Rasta hat. Made of wool but water proof. The price tag was like £336 GBP so I said I couldnt afford it. End of dream. Weird.
    I have accupuncture later today with Dr wang just down the road. I have never been to him before so it will be a new experience for me. Lets hope he knows what he's doing LOL.
    I keep thinking about all the suffering addicts all around the world and my heart goes out to each and everyone of you. How ever bad it is, YOU CAN GET WELL. There is a way out. It takes time so just put one foot infront of the other and take one day at a time. If I can do this anyone can. I,m so nearly there now,I see the light at the end of the tunnell. Maybe I have 10 to 14 days left of my prefered method of very slow taper. No make that very very very slowly. Its my way and it works. Withdrawl is 99% physcological for me. Its all in my head and mind. Peace and love to you all Mono :vibes:

    supermono added 1305 Minutes and 20 Seconds later...

    Down to 50 mg of codeine phosphate yesterday. Thats great, I,m so pleased. That is less than ten percent of what I was taking 2 months ago. I,m sleeping ok but can take a long time to drift off. I have dreampt 2 nights in a row and have started to yawn again. I can see the light at the end of the tunnel as my train picks up speed.
    I,ll dose 4 times today 8 mg now then 12 then 8 then 12mg. That will take me down to 40mg. My withdrawls are very light and sometimes non existant. It took me a while to work out the dose and frequency but I got there. Codeine has a very short half life and I should have dosed like this from the begining. Doing a very slow taper really has been a very good way for me. No pain or little pain. I cant jump like some people do. I cant handle the depression and anxiety. I have to take it real slow. I,m lucky as I have the time to do this. I appreciate others dont.
    My anxiety is much better now. It can still come and go but I,m not getting pain in my chest so frequently or as strong. I hope it doesnt come back I hate it worse than the withdrawl.
    I went to see a chinese Doctor yesterday. He is a Doctor of western medicine and a Doctor of accupunture and chinese herbs. He's agreed to treat me. I had some lovely accupunture yesterday. 9 needles. He,s posting me some chinese medicine which is licorice, Jujube (chinese dates) shrivelled wheat and Ginkgo leaf. It will come in a powder and I,m to take one teaspoon twice a day. Apparantly it tastes discusting but hey ho. He was surprised my pulse and BP were good. He was surprised ? I nearly fell off the chair. Its very reassuring for me. I,m not eating very big meals but seem to graze but that will return too. It wont be long now. I,ve got this. I,ll never return. I,m lucky, as some of us didnt make it.
    Have a good day everyone. Peace mono :vibes:


  1. Jungledog

    Acupuncture and Chinese traditional medicine can work wonders. I have been using it to help with my pain for awhile. It helps some with the withdraw and AI. I can't use licorice as it is too stimulating for me. I am interested to see how you do with it.

    You have your head straight and are ready to come clean. This is the way out. Just keep to the taper and keep busy. You are doing it!
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