35 years of drug taking - Part 21

By supermono · Dec 16, 2014 · ·
  1. Hi,
    Thanks for your support catgoddess and JD. I hope your both doing well. I am 32 hours and 29 minutes in from my final dose of codeine. I think and hope I have got the taper spot on this time. Two weeks ago I taperd too fast and crashed badly. But I picked myself up. Went back one step to gain 2 or 3 steps forward. Slow, really slow is the way to go for me. I have a few minor aches and pains but no worse than the flu. My head seems OK too. Just some mild free floating anxiety yesterday. No pain in the chest. Cool.
    I have some councilling today and possible accupuncture but my chineese doctor said do not use two accupuncturists as they will treat you in a different way. Not sure what I will do. I feel like taking it today maybe just one go. Then back to the chinaman on thursday. I had my first chineese herbs yesterday. It didnt taste bad as he had suggested and I didnt get a bad tummy either. I,ll have two 2mg teaspoons today. So my freinds. Things are heading in the right direction. My eldest daughter is skiing in Austria. I am not jealous at all lol. Lucky girl. She needs it. She was born with Achondraplasia. Its the most common form of dwarfism. My heart has bled for her. Her mother too. She will be 17 on the shortest day of the year. December 21st. We laugh about it. M being very small and having her birthday on the shortest day. She got to 4 foot. The condition is genetic. You can't do much medically but she didnt want to have limb lengthening. I wouldnt want it either. I would just want to be myself. She has grown into a wonderful young lady. We are all very proud of what she has achieved. I am texting her a lot and she said "thanks dad" yesterday via text. That hasnt happened for a while and means alot to me like she will never know.
    Thanks everybody. I got this in the bag now. Have a good day. Peace mono

Comments

  1. Mr Bumble
    I hear you brother, cos even when the physical pain is gone the depression and anxiety is still there.

    Last time I quit I had no work and was to anxious to go and get any, having no money did my head in, it was a big part of my relapse, that and leaving home and my daughter and my best friend dying, but hey the devil makes work for idle hands.

    I've been working so hard this last part of the year I have more offers of work than i can manage so as soon as I'm srong it's striaght back to work.

    Just keep doing what your doing but make sure you stay busy and out off the couch as much as possible
  2. Jungledog
    Mono,

    Isn't it amazing how much emotion can come from written words or texts? My husband and I had most of our "heavy" discussion the other night via text. I was at my parents and could not talk. But in some way I think we are more honest in what we write.

    Your daughter sounds lovely. She will find her way. Pride in self and being OK in your own skin is what gets us all through.
  3. Mr Bumble
    So true JD Girl, I've written things on here to people I've never met that I've never told anyone
  4. lostlygirl
    I will say this once, and I will say it again, we are not strangers on this forum. We are like minded individuals fighting against a common enemy.

    Our friendships are forged in the blood and years spent fighting a demon that at any time that could kill us. We are gathering to battle, and we rely on the collective strengths and knowledge of the group. We all bring something unexpected, we all bring something unique. We bring our naked selves and our experiences.

    (Hahaha!I just had the visual of all of us going naked into battle.....hahaha! Its is probably not the best idea, but hey, the visuals good for a laugh. Can you see us all?? Naked, smashing our drugs with swords in the streets as the rest of the world walks by..... shaking their heads thinking "What a bunch of utter nutters. Now there's a bunch of crazies off their meds". Ah...exactly! We ARE off our meds. :) )

    Anyway... My imagination and ironic humor has me off track (it happens often). What I am saying is that I consider us bonded and the best of friends.

    Love to you ALL, always. And... We will win this naked war, people!
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