Thanks for your support Mel and everybody else. I am so feckin bored. I know its part of the process. I know it takes time. I should know, I,ve been here quite a few times.
I forced myself to go out yesterday. Not for long. Just a short walk on the beach. A Freezing cold beach at that. I fixed my amplifier though. Now I am really going to piss the neighbours off. They piss me off enough with their feckin dogs barking like they want to kill. I got arrested last year because I threatened my NFH.
NEIGHBOUR FROM HELL. What a bitch she is. 3 dogs, she does not walk them and they bark feckin loudly. It should be against the law. I,ve tried everything. The RSPCA, the environmental dept, the parish council, the police, her landlord, even my feckin useless MP. A waste of time. I need to not let it affect me but it does. I moved here for peace and quiet and everything was great until my neighbour moved out. Then this bitch moved in. Now the lady on the other side of NFH has sold her house because of NFH. Fekin bad situation. Nobody helped her. I tried but she didnt take my advice even though she came over 4 or 5 times to ask for advise about what to do. I bet the new people knock on my door and ask if I know anything about the dog noise. I,d bet money on it. The whole cycle will continue. Its no wonder I chucked oxy,mst,tramadol,DF118's alcohol and pot down my neck. It makes me anxious. But my anxiety has been good over the last few days. I,m pleased about it. I have accupunture today. Good. Maybe cut, fix and stain a shelf for another amplifier in the kitchen for more very loud music. If I have any energy. I have achieved a small milestone cos I,m 82 hours in without opiates. I was thinking 72 hours being the peek of any wdrls. I dont feel to bad this morning. Just really bored. No spark. No motivation. No energy. It will come.......slowly.