Thanks for the support JD and Bumble. I am back on track and just going to take it one day at a time. Put one foot in front of the other. Forget about tomorrow. I did go to NA/AA. Maybe I shall return. The serenity prayer is great. Its the only prayer I know. I am powerless over my addiction and need to remind myself everyday how bad my addiction had become. I was on my knees. Not enjoying life. Shovelling all that shit down me to feel .......I was going to say normal, but I wasn't normal. I don't know what normal is.....Yet !
I went for acupuncture yesterday and was shaking like a leaf. Bp and pulse a bit high. Dr H is a chinese man who studied acupuncture 6 days a week for 8 years. He is also a western Doc too. The work ethic of the chinese is quite astounding. Not like here in europe. Enjoy your days everybody. Keep fighting.
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What a great day I've had only for it to be ruined by NFH. I'm going to see her landlord tomorrow but I need to remain calm even though I want to rip his head off.
NFH's dog has just kicked off at nearly midnight. I was really looking forward to some sleep and now i,ve got some anxiety so thought I,d just get it off my chest here on DF.
Things are going well for me. My sobriety comes first over everything else just one day at a time. Sleep well all you lovely people. Couldn't do it without you.