JD and lostly........Very funny. You read my mind. I once posted up on a website asking how many valium it would take to kill a dog. If I do it now the police will know its me. I don't feel good today. I feel low. Don't feel like doing anything. just keep warm, eat at my mums and watch rubbish TV. I keep getting anxiety when I go to bed ! Really weird , don't know why. Then I have to take some xanax and I dont want to take that shit.
Still, things will improve slowly. I am confident of that. Staying clean is the important part of my life. I remind myself right now how horrible my life was. How bad the wdrls were. How my work suffered. How I was on my knees. I was a suffering addict. Now I,m a suffering addict in recovery but it will improve. It does get better.
I,ve a little work to do so that will bring a few pennys in. A good start. I want X mas and the new year over so I can get back to work, expend energy and return to unaided sleep. Being tired and sleeping is so good but will take a little time. Patience mono be patient my man. It will come.
Stay clean everybody. Thinking of you all. Praying we all get well