Hi, Thanks ianzombie and JD. Great advice. I took 3 x 800 mg valerian root last night but spaced them apart by 20 minutes so it wouldn't give me a stomach ache. I felt more sleepy when I got into bed than I have and got to sleep quite quickly. I slept for about 6 hours. Best sleep so far. 6 hours a night will do me fine. Many thanks for your help guys. Hopefully my body will recognise this and start to adjust itself.
I also got some 5-Hydroxytryptophan (5-HTP), also known as oxitriptan (INN), is a naturally occurring amino acid and chemical precursor as well as a metabolic intermediate in the biosynthesis of the neurotransmitters serotonin and melatonin from tryptophan. ( Not my explanation )
Do you know this JD or anyone else ?
People are taking this in the uk after a weekend of coke and MDMA so thought I,d try some to boost serotonin.
Thanks for your support guys. Hope your all doing well. Speak soon. Much love Mono
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I new the time would come.........The monkey is on my back. I,m very stressed out. The monkey tells me to use but it will only make matters worse. I can not change why I am stressed out. I need to use the serenity prayer to help me. "Grant me the serenity to accept the things I can not change"
I have to try and sort this out tomorrow. Its to late in the day to speak to the fekin useless people that I have to deal with. None of them are accountable for their actions.
If I use now I,ll use again tomorrow and the day after that and then I,ll get depressed and the fekin cycle will start again. I,ll just say fuck it and I,ll end up in my black hole, pretending everything will be ok. I'm envious of people who can take it or leave it. I am fekin jealous. Why me ? Why am I am addict ? Is it genetic ? Is it all the shite I've had to deal with all my life ? Fuck knows. Does it matter ??
I will not use today. I will not. Fuck off monkey go fuck yourself. One day you will not be on my back. You will give up on me if I stay strong.
I,m going out to buy some tobbaco. I was told many years ago to take it one step at a time and not to worry about the fags ( cigarettes ) I,ve been vaping my nicotiene. At least I can drive because I,m not intoxicated. I,ll just curl up in the warmth of my home. Watch some TV and hopefully sleep tonight.
Maybe this will help just to dump it here on DF.