ONE YEAR CLEAN!!!
I cannot say how happy I am, and how much I appreciate all the support I was given from perfect strangers here on the forum. You all got me through some tough times and rough patches. I will be forever grateful.
Looking back at the past year I think of the true feelings I have felt, real sadness and also pure happiness. You forget what that really feels like when you've been dulling your senses for so long.
In the past year I've started taking good care of myself! I exercise and eat well. I sleep 8-9 hours a night. I'm great at my job and I don't dread being there. I got married; we are talking about having a child within the next year.
I think the best parts, for me, about being clean are the freedom that comes with not NEEDING a substance to make it through the day, and the pure joy I now get from pretty basic stuff. Last Christmas was the best one I can remember in years. I so thoroughly enjoyed all the little pieces of holiday prep, parties, my family... And I actually feel happy when I do everyday chores like dishes or laundry. This summer I've squeezed so much fun out of the season! I remember why I used to be a beach bum and why I loved the heat of the sun so much.
After reflecting on my first year after opiates, to anyone wondering if getting clean is worth it I would say this: I never knew before my addiction how much I could love everyday life, and the agony of those early days/weeks is a small price to pay for the way life feels now.
I am so proud and happy to have reached one year. Thanks again for all you have done for me. You know who you are!