1. I can't for the life of me figure out how it's Thursday already. I intended to journal here every day but I clearly flopped out. I got high all afternoon again what must have been day before yesterday. I vaugly remember going too my drug consoling classes yesterday morning but having gotten no sleep the night before the rest of the day was a blur. Didn't do jack shit today didn't go to group, went too a NA meeting but only cuz it was at the place I live and mandatory. Other then that all I did was surf Backpage shopping for a hooker I may treat myself to next week. Oh and I stole a can of computer cleaner at the meeting and am now abusing it to it's fullest. Quite the high class life I lead, I know. So yea, as you may have guessed I've been kind of depressed today. I hope tomorrow is better. Oh yea and I think I ripped something pretty bad the other day when I was talking an uncooperative dump. But bleeding and in constant pain since. To much information, yes, but I want to document the level to which my life sucks at the moment. Have a equally painful, self inflicted injury to another sensitive body part but I'll let you use your imagination for that one. Fuck my life, and goodnight.


  1. Kickingthedemond88
    I hate to be this blunt but you are making your life suck, every bit of this is self inflicting. You were clean when you went in and now you are making the CHOICE to spiral back out of control. Nobody can change this but you. Either decide to live the rest of your life just like it is now until you die from an overdose or make the choice to stay clean. There is a line in the sand boss and it's either "in" or "out"
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