Addicted to Loperamide-New Year, New Start, New Motivation and support is key - Part 67

By Nefret · Aug 15, 2014 · ·
  1. Thanks tat for your input. I agree with helping others. I find sometimes I get reading other people's journals and posting to them, when I have a minute then I am spent and don't post on my own journal. Also right now my husband and I moved to my mom's house, where I grew up cause my mom has dementia and is 92 (she had me late in life) so I am on guard so to speak 24/7. It is very stressful on a few levels. In this house I experienced abuse. So it is tough being back here.

    Rosie :). So nice to read your encouraging post. The move was extreamly difficult. Instead of getting movers, my husbAnd gets his brother who has a pick up truck! It took about a week to move! Uuuggghhh. But I didn't go up on my dose or take Percocets either. For a few days though I Awoke with high anxiety, but still had to take care of my mom. But the last s days or so I awoke normaly, without anxiety. Felt awesome! About 3 days or so I made a cut with my Lopes so I am down to 20 pills now. I had at times terrible anxiety and really couldn't sleep well, but last night and morning the anxiety has disapated :). But it could come back as there is anxiety moving here and the taper anxiety. So I will wait till things calm down a little more. Shouldn't be to long ( I pray!)

    And yes dear Rosie, we will be overcomers from this awful drug and any others too! It will just take time and accept that at times we will feel uncomfortable. And like you said, it will pass!

    And I think that having to or rather choose to look after someone else is helping me in some ways and in other ways it can be overwhelming. She at times wakes me up in the middle of the night, have to change her diapers and feel if they are soiled. I feed her or else food will go everywhere but her mouth. She really can't speak anymore, just mumbles and when I can understand her, she's asking for my dad. But he passed away 26 years ago....etc etc. But I love her to bits and sometimes its a joy to help her.

    Anyway, thanks for reading :)

    Question: my doctor gave me some 0.5mg Xanax cause they work fast. I have been taking 2 other Benzos for years now. How long will it take my body to get dependant on them? I don't want to get dependant on Xanax. So how long can I safely take Xanax?

    Also for my bad back and sciatica I am taking Lyrica, Gabapentin and Flexeral. And I take Advil too. Really seems to be helping with my back issues!

Comments

  1. Roaddoggy
    To answer your question your already addicted to Xanax, if your dependent on one benzo, your dependent to all of them. I guess the best way to ay it is a benzo is a benzo is a benzo.

    Sorry to hear you move was so rough, but glad to see you posting, again today is something like day 93 clean and I feel ok. Yes I feel ok. Not great but OK.

    Also I have started tapering off my valium. I went from 30 mgs. to 27.5mgs. Tomorrow I make my next cut od 2.5 bringing me down to 25mgs. Ill have to slow down soon but, I'm doing ok.

    Really compared to 3 months ago, I feel like a million bucks. I mean loperamide is so hard. Just know I and many others are here for you. I want you to know all my thoughts are with you. Much love. Roaddoggy....
  2. myrandomchaos
    Nefret,
    I am truly so sorry you have had so much to deal with. You are amazing and so compassionate, I can just tell, in the way you describe taking care of your mother. What a blessing you are to her and all of us here. I don't have personal experience in being primary caretaker for a parent, but I have worked extensively with families that are going through similar situations.

    I just have to tell you that just I used to be in awe of some of the children and family members I interacted with while working with their loved ones, I am in awe of what you are doing for your mother. I also just so very sorry to hear you experienced abuse in that house, I cannot imagine how many different emotions you must be going through. I know it isn't anywhere near enough to make it all better for you, but please know that you inspire me in so many ways and I hope you realize just how strong you are. From my past experiences, there are way fewer people than most would imagine that would be willing to do what you are
    doing for you mom, and even fewer that would under the circumstances you have been dealing with. You are amazing, and please don't ever think otherwise!

    Also, I am so proud and encouraged personally by your ability to not take any percocets and not increase your loperamide dose through all of this. You are one strong person! I have no doubt you are going to beat this. We may not be free of loperamide tomorrow or as quickly as some may feel we should, but no one knows what each person here is struggling with or what our lives are like. Just the fact that these threads have stayed as active as they have and that I feel we have formed such a strong support group, shows how determined and driven and, yes - here is that word again - Strong!- you are and everyone here is!

    There will be good days and bad days. There will be ups and downs. But, I was really moved by when Rosey posted:

    This struggle will NOT be the rest of our lives! In fact, I really believe that these threads are all being written by pioneers (sounds kind of silly, I guess, but I really do believe it). As a direct result of you, Ellen, Road, Rosey and everyone else that started sharing their stories, I was given the courage to come forward and share my story. You all have already been able to help bring to light what loperamide really does, educate others on the risks and the incredibly challenging withdrawal and, in addition, I firmly believe that there have been people struggling with withdrawals of their own that turned down loperamide, because of what has been written by all of you.

    I am sending lots of prayers your way and I hope that today finds you feeling joy and happiness, because you so deserve it!
    mrc
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